call_on_angels
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I've been struggling with elbow, forearm, and finger pain for 2 years now. I've hardly started my dream job and already struggle through each day. Typing, mousing, grasping, lifting, etc all cause pain. I've tried at least 20 types of medicine over 2 years, spent a down payment on a house in fees, and thanks to traction and massage, I've been able to recover ~80%.
But my pain areas in my arms may have lessened in intensity but has spread in area: from 1 finger to nearly the entirely of both arms. I have pain in my hand and triceps from just typing these few sentences. Ive found NO doctor who can diagnose me with a major structural abnormality - only "normal abnormalities." Medical professionals have told me to look into my stress levels, but I had never done this because 1) friends would describe me as a motivated, but low-stress person, and 2) my pain fluctuations in the last 2 years have not, to my knowledge, correlated with conscious stress bouts (I would get more pain after doing arm-intensive leisure activities than at a high stress work situation).
I was at a point to assume I was chronically fatigued, that my nerves were going to need years to heal, etc. There have been 2 moments I've resumed no pain - and they were immediately following massage or traction, likely from increase in blood flow to the areas. And I understand now that low blood flow effects so much.
However, no matter who I go to or what I do, my pain returns to some extent. maybe I DID have a structural injury, but have since learned to associate activities with pain, as I have since lived in total fear of losing everything I love to this pain, and I mean everything - career, value as a person, finances, dreams, hobbies, possibility of marriage, etc. and anger towards letting myself get to this position.
TMS personality types lay out much of the type of person I am . and because of that, i'm not giving up hope for recovery. I know I have learned responses. I know I am not the most openly emotional person. I know my pain shifts along the same nerve line in both of my arms all the time. And I'm a few weeks away from losing my job because of the pain. So I'm doing TMS because 1) this may be me 2)this is the only thing I havent tried 3)I have absolutely nothing to lose, because i feel as if NOT trying is going to end in me losing everything (the fear). And in true TMS personality fashion - i'm going to give it everything I have!
But my pain areas in my arms may have lessened in intensity but has spread in area: from 1 finger to nearly the entirely of both arms. I have pain in my hand and triceps from just typing these few sentences. Ive found NO doctor who can diagnose me with a major structural abnormality - only "normal abnormalities." Medical professionals have told me to look into my stress levels, but I had never done this because 1) friends would describe me as a motivated, but low-stress person, and 2) my pain fluctuations in the last 2 years have not, to my knowledge, correlated with conscious stress bouts (I would get more pain after doing arm-intensive leisure activities than at a high stress work situation).
I was at a point to assume I was chronically fatigued, that my nerves were going to need years to heal, etc. There have been 2 moments I've resumed no pain - and they were immediately following massage or traction, likely from increase in blood flow to the areas. And I understand now that low blood flow effects so much.
However, no matter who I go to or what I do, my pain returns to some extent. maybe I DID have a structural injury, but have since learned to associate activities with pain, as I have since lived in total fear of losing everything I love to this pain, and I mean everything - career, value as a person, finances, dreams, hobbies, possibility of marriage, etc. and anger towards letting myself get to this position.
TMS personality types lay out much of the type of person I am . and because of that, i'm not giving up hope for recovery. I know I have learned responses. I know I am not the most openly emotional person. I know my pain shifts along the same nerve line in both of my arms all the time. And I'm a few weeks away from losing my job because of the pain. So I'm doing TMS because 1) this may be me 2)this is the only thing I havent tried 3)I have absolutely nothing to lose, because i feel as if NOT trying is going to end in me losing everything (the fear). And in true TMS personality fashion - i'm going to give it everything I have!
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