I have been experiencing lower back pain and hip pain since November of 2013. Finally when I reached my pain anniversary in November of 2014 I decided to give up on doctors and just start lying when people asked me how my back feels. I was tired of getting sympathetic looks from my friends. This idea of pretending the pain wasn't there gave me an idea and I googled emotions and back pain. Obviously I came up with the 20/20 video featuring Dr. Sarno. I immediately bought his ibook Healing Back Pain and read much of it that night. By the time I finished the book a couple days later I was already starting to feel better. Soon I was essentially pain free for the first time in a year! It lasted about two glorious weeks and then I obviously started to beat myself up about something again. The pain returned shortly after Thanksgiving when I came down with laryngitis for almost a full week. I was also diagnosed with a labral hip tear two days prior. While I was sick I craved comfort food and my normally clean diet went to crap. I felt guilty and stopped trying, carrying this attitude with me through a Christmas trip to FL with my in-laws. On our return flight I finished The Divided Mind. I think finishing this book sort of gave me permission to start to get better. I had covered my bases, read all the material and all the testimonials. I had a perfect knowledge base, so to speak. I am a person who can't make a decision until I have explored all the options and collected all the data. Finally just yesterday I started to feel better again. I watched the 20/20 video again and was left with hope, but also even more questions. I fully accept that my repressed emotions and personality have power over my behavior and demeanor and it's easy for me to extrapolate that effect to physical pain in body. My feelings of doubt about a TMS diagnosis linger for two reasons: 1) Though the MRI of my back shows I am completely normal, the labral tear diagnosis is tripping me up. I was encouraged tonight when I finally brought myself to read the doctor's report. I would call his interpretation of the imaging for lack of a better description.... B.S. His wording makes him sound like he was searching for a diagnosis to justify the test. He goes so far as to say "a suspected tear" which only spans 2 1/2 clock hours of the labrum. By this I am encouraged. 2) Dr. Sarno talks more than once about back pain being en vogue or the new fad in medical disorders after peptic ulcers. I struggle with understanding why my brain chose back and hip pain when I never even thought of back pain before. I have never feared back pain and never feared over exertion or injuring myself during exercise. It's just not something I ever obsessed over or thought could ever happen to me. I desperately want to be free of doubts and fully accept TMS as a diagnosis so I can move on and go back to strenuous exercise, being able to do whatever I want. I am only 31 years old and I am not ready to accept a life of aches and pains.