Hi, I want my body to feel healthy again. My story - I began developing widespread muscular, tendon and cartilage pain earlier this year after several months of very intense daily and nightly panic attacks. This year has been the most awful year for me and this syndrome has deeply affected my work life, my personal life and my family life. The pain is always very bad in the mornings and fades as the day goes on, only to fully return again after sleeping. The pain also affects different body parts each day and moves around through the day. As with most people with TMS I have spoken to and have been assessed by many health professionals, had many types of medical tests performed and multiple blood tests carried out. All of these tests shown no medical cause, with only my blood showing vitamin d and b12 deficiencies. Treatment was given to correct these deficiencies and at the time of being diagnosed with these I was very happy thinking I had found the culprits for my suffering, but after months of having very high dosages of vit d and b12 injections my symptoms continued and infact worsened in time. Needless to say I was very disappointed with this. All heart ECG's and blood pressure tests carried out were normal, and a brain scan was also normal with no concerns. I feel that over the months I have made a complete nuisance of myself in my doctors practice with me making constant appointments to try and get to the bottom of what was happening to me, becoming upset and teary when talking to the doctor became a regular thing and I despaired when my doctor felt she could not help me further and referred me to a rheumatologist. It was he who diagnosed the vit b12 def but could assist no further because he could find no other cause for my widespread pain, but did feel it might be somewhere in the fibromylagia area of diagnosis! This wasn't a great to hear and I think at that point I became even more confused and needy for an answer, to now conclude whether it was or was not fibro. Of course I now know that fibro is a severe form of TPS. The neurologist too felt that after carrying out a thorough hands on physical assessment there was no neurological cause for my widespread pain but performed a brain MRI because he could see that I was an anxious person. I was then discharged from him even before the MRI was taken, leaving me unable to ask him any follow up questions like - could these symptoms be caused any other neuro disorder that does not show in a brain MRI but could be caused by a spinal column malfunction, or a nervous system disfunction which is what I actually feared at that point. So here I am now, still experiencing widespread pain and with no known cause indentified. I have recently read through The Mindbody disorder and indentified myself on every single character trait of the personality type most effected by TMS and many of the additional circumstances that can contribute to firing up TMS, both past and present. I am needing to get my mind and body back and am now putting my faith in that my suffering is TMS and am commited to following this program to do this. This has been difficult to maintain over the last few weeks because of the pain I experience each morning and I am aware by brain is trying to pin down a cause for all of this happening. It's tough battle and I do have to keep on keeping the faith that this is TMS at play. Many thanks, John.