Crying

[Fal]

Has anyone experienced this to some degree during recovery? I'm just short of 2 years into working out what the problem was and putting it into action.

1st year was mainly just teaching myself not to be bothered and after about 10 months the pain went away and i was just left with stiffness and my body is all crooked from tight muscles in different places etc...

2nd year has just been downright terrible despite still doing the methods and getting on with my life as best i can. Im sure its the symptom imperative but ive had a number of issues this year that i didnt have last year or when i was going through the worst of it...

- Stye in my left eye (never had one before)
- Conjunctivitis in both eyes, not had that in 25 years from what i recall.
- Fingers that pruned for no reason even upon waking
- Random bouts of tiredness middle of the day despite sleeping well
- Such severe jaw tension out of nowhere which knocked my bite out of alignment and caused some shifing teeth and literally felt like my teeth were breaking (also began clenching which ive never done before). This got better after 3 months but i get the odd bout of it randomly, the clenching if im still doing it only happens during sleep.
- Difficulty swallowing a few things, mainly bread.
- Lastly just random bouts of overwheleming sadness and crying, i literally had to call my mum this past monday as it was making me sucidal and wanting to give up. Ive cried randomly on the phone to my kids. just cried again randomly tonight.

I've been researching an explanation as i dont feel stressed or anxious (i mean i would feel better once by body is back to normal obviously) and generally feel calm most days, i can sleep fine. It seems that this can be a sign of emotional purging that my body is finally letting go of the built up emotion i never processed before which if thats the case the fine. I just want to know if anyone else just cried for no reason or a random bout of sadness out of the blue??

 

[JanAtheCPA]

Hmmm, let's see... Mom still around, adult kids...reaching out to mom and kids... if I had to put a name to it, the euphemistic term would be midlife crisis. The TMS viewpoint is that the midlife crisis is a pretty straightforward and normal response to the big existential issues of Isolation, Abandonment, Meaning, and, of course, Mortality.

And what is the "normal", or typical, response? It's Repression, baby!

Just a thought. You know, based only on my personal experience.

 

[BloodMoon]

It seems that this can be a sign of emotional purging that my body is finally letting go of the built up emotion i never processed before which if thats the case the fine. I just want to know if anyone else just cried for no reason or a random bout of sadness out of the blue??

Not particularly personally, just the odd bout. However, when I was referred to a pain specialist (as I had been diagnosed with 'fibromyalgia') it was to an enlightened doctor who was into treating his patients holistically; he recommended things like mindfulness, meditation, yoga and talk therapy (he never mentioned Dr Sarno, but he was nevertheless very much into mind/body work) and he told me that he realised that his patients were often tense and "sad". He said he could see the tenseness from the set of their jaw. I remember that this doctor said that one of his male patients told him that after following his advice to do yoga, meditate etc., he was crying a lot and felt like he might never stop; he said he felt like he "could cry forever" and was frightened that would be the case because he didn't exactly know why he felt like that (he was concerned about suffering bodily pain and often pissed off about it, but that wasn't it). The pain specialist told me he advised him to just let it flow out and go through the release of it all, and apparently he did eventually stop crying and feeling like crying and generally felt a lot better, with the reduction of his symptoms (like me he was also apparently suffering from 'fibromyalgia'). I don't know why the pain specialist told me about this, maybe I looked quite sad to him... and he was kind of giving me permission to release my sadness. So, anyway, my guess is that you're letting go of pent up emotion...

Perhaps consider doing some 'stream of consciousness' journaling... that is, write down anything that comes into your head, without censoring... no periods/full stops or commas... let it flow and see what it might produce and tell you. On our journeys out of TMS I wager we all feel like giving up sometimes (I know I have) but obviously talk to a professional/support organisation if you continue to have bouts of feeling suicidal.

 

[Mr Hip Guy]

I used to be very resistant to crying (typical male, repressing and pushing down certain emotions) but have gotten wise enough in my old age (at least in this) to appreciate the moments when I can get that kind of release. I absolutely always feel better after.

Literally in church yesterday with my wife there was a message with certain members opening up about certain things they had gone through and it brought it out. Felt like it helped afterwards with some TMS things I've been dealing with.