I am new to this TMS process and getting very confused by it all. I don't feel ready to explain all of my story, but there are elements of my story which it would be helpful to share, in the hope that someone on here will be able to relate to it and alleviate my isolation. I must emphasize that pree leg issues I was a chronic anxiety sufferer with agoraphobic tendencies. Whilst I had a back issue 10 years ago I was free of any such issue subsequently. Three years ago after a nasty bout of Labyrinthitis followed by a series of personal traumas, I started to walk with a stiff leg. I must point out at this juncture that I had always been very practical, very capable and could build/paint. My anxiety increased when I was dumped unceremoniously, practically at the altar, and I sought physio help for my leg. I managed to get to the therapists and do my sessions but emotionally I was a mess. Three years on I am in a dreadful state. The physio stopped working, my anxiety increased and my agoraphobia has become acute. Whilst I have been seen at home by a neurologist, I have never been able to get an MRI. All the indications are that the problem is muscle weakness due to altered gait, but it has got to the point that I almost have dropfoot. It is impossible for me to get to the hospital and I am sure my issues are psychological anyway. From using a stick to pull y leg along, I now have a frozen shoulder. I try and try to do the exercises to strengthen my muscles but nothing works. I have weakness, general lack of condition, the frozen shoulder is also causing weakness in my right hand too. It feels as if the harder I try, the worse I get and lie awake at night wondering if my next step is a wheelchair. Deep down I am sure this is all emotional, but I haven't heard any other folk on here who were already suffering from anxiety before TMS, just folk who had a back pain and then developed or recognised their anxiety. I am starting TMS therapy but I feel like I am going round in circles, one moment I think TMS is the answer, next minute I don't. When my partner left, I was left in a very rural environment which of course has made accessing any support very difficult, although believe me I have tried. As Christmas approaches I can not bear another three years of this existence. I am reaching out to anyone who can relate to the odd gait, the weakness, the problem with exercise, (harder I try the more impossible it is) to give me some sense that I am on the right track and can be positive, Thank you for your time, if you have made it to the end of my scribblings, I know I have been inconcise and rambled a lot.