When I started the program over a month ago, I had already been doing similar work on my own. I only stuck with it for about a week before I felt like I didn't need to go through the program formally any more. I felt all better for a while. My first big symptom was hip pain-- that's gone now. When I started the SEP I was dealing with neck/shoulder pain--which went away for a while. It's back now, as jaw pain right under my ears, and a near constant ringing in my ears. I've actually been trying to ignore it for a few weeks now. I've been focused on not reinforcing it, to let go of suffering, and on trying to remind my body how to relax through meditation. This morning I couldn't bear the idea of going to work. I knew I was about to explode from stress (everything that could go wrong has gone wrong, lately). Sure enough, just after I decided to stay home, my boyfriend called to tell me about ANOTHER THING that had gone wrong and I just exploded in tears. I'm realizing that I've been neglecting an important piece of the treatment: actively processing emotional issues. I've been avoiding it because, due to an insurance issue, I haven't been able to see my therapist in weeks. I've been avoiding digging into issues because past experience tells me that doing that alone, without a therapist's support, digs me a depressive hole. And everyone I am close to is so deeply entrenched in their own terrible life problems that I don't feel comfortable asking them for the level of support that I need. (My parents unintentionally trained me in childhood that if I have emotional needs, I am an overwhelming burden. It's hard to un-learn that.) So anyway, I decided to come back here. Meditation and journaling just isn't enough of an outlet right now. I've been putting so much pressure on myself lately, and the external stress is just piling on day by day. I'm in my mid-20s, I'm struggling with health issues, barely earning enough to live on, worrying so much about finding a career, and I have no family who can offer me genuine support (emotionally or financially). Its hurts to see friends who are living well, finding opportunities, and who have families. I feel very alone, and very overwhelmed. Hopefully I will be able to see my therapist again in a week or two, but until then, I'm hanging on. Maybe some of you can relate and it will help to read this. Or maybe some of you have encouragement to offer.