Hi everyone, this is going to be a long post so thanks to those that make it to the end!
To begin with I should say that until very recently I had never heard of TMS, but right now I think it may be the answer to the problem I will go on to describe. I would love to hear responses from people who've experienced anything similar, or any advice as to whether this could be TMS, or just any advice in general!
My name is Ben and I'm a 21 year old university student from the UK. As described in the title, I'm currently experiencing chronic testicular pain. The pain has been present for the past four months. For me, the pain is centred just above my right testicle, but I also have occasional inner thigh pain, hip pain, low back pain and lower abdomen pain - all on my right side. The pain can be anywhere from a 2/10 (more uncomfortable than pain) to painful enough that I've even been to A and E (accident and emergency) a few times.
I've been through the medical labyrinth trying to find a diagnosis and solution to my pain. To begin with I was diagnosed with Epididymitis (an infection) and I took multiple courses of antibiotics, the pain did improve, although it would always come back just as bad as before eventually, and to begin with I never showed any signs of infection that you would expect (urine analysis came up completely normal, for example).
After deciding it wasn't an infection, I began to look into muscular / skeletal causes. I researched trigger point therapy after reading about it online and got a few treatments. The therapist told me that I definitely DID have trigger points, some of which were known to refer pain to the testicles, so this was a great relief. However, once again I never experienced any long lasting relief. And now all the tender points/areas identified as trigger points seem to have resolved themselves, so I think this is unlikely to be the primary cause.
I then looked into more structural issues, I read about how problems with the hip and spine could cause testicular pain. Once again I thought this was my answer, so I saw both a physiotherapist and a chiropractor (despite being fairly skeptical of chiropractic treatment). Both the physio and the chiropractor identified issues which they said could be causing my pain. They said I had very tight muscles in my hip, and my lower back was not as mobile as it should be, which could apparently irritate nerves in some way causing the pain.
Once again I felt fairly relieved, so I began treatment feeling relatively optimistic. I was instructed to do plenty of stretching of the involved muscles, and the chiropractor carried out manipulations of my spine.
The stretching has mad little difference, but I have to say that the spinal manipulation did improve things, which I began to notice in the 48 hours after treatment. The pain seemed to almost completely go from my testicles and instead centre in the middle of my lower back. However, this effect was also temporary and once again I found myself back in exactly the same position - with exactly the same symptoms I began with.
I'm still keeping up with the physiotherapy and seeing a chiropractor. If there is a physical cause, I feel this is it. I have bad posture and did injure my lower abdomen/hip falling off my bike a few weeks before my symptoms started, which apparently could have led to the muscle tightness and stiffness in my hip.
That brings me pretty up to date with where I am now. Although there is a plausible physical cause, I still feel something like TMS is a possibility for me. The physio and chiropractor (and all the doctors/urologists/specialists I've seen for that matter) seem very vague and unsure - it's always 'could' or 'maybe', and none of them have seen something like this before, at least not something they managed to completely treat (although there are accounts of this online).
One of the main reasons I feel like this could be TMS, or at least TMS related, is just due to my personality and circumstances.
I'm a very anxious person, despite rarely showing this outwardly, I worry about all manner of things and at previous times in my life have suffered from panic attacks and crippling anxiety - to the point where I didn't want to leave my room and became very withdrawn socially.
This came to a head in my first year of university, and in a way is continuing to this day. Before university I had a very secure and stable group of friends and family life. However, perhaps because of this, I found it very difficult to fit in and meet people once I began university. I became very lonely, anxious and withdrawn. To top all this off my parents split up that Christmas. I had always valued having a 'secure' family life, and felt very lucky and grateful for this when other things in my life weren't going to plan. It felt like a huge blow that the secure part of my life that I could fall back on was suddenly not there anymore - at least not in the same way.
I also had relationship trouble with my girlfriend of 5 years, I don't think theres any need to go into detail but as you can imagine this did not help my overall psychological state.
Anyway, It's only now I'm making the connection between my emotional state and the chronic pain I've been experiencing. The pain is definitely worse in times of increased stress (although I understand this is the same with all pain) and I definitely feel a bit better when I manage to stop worrying about it so much (rarely)
It's only now I'm really realising the degree of catastrophic thinking and obsession I've had over this pain, I've spent countless hours googling and reading though pages and pages of medical forums (which of course did not help). I suppose I'm just terrified of having this pain my whole life, and it's only now I'm realising that my emotional response to the pain (and other things in my life) are in fact the reason, or at least part of the reason, I'm not feeling any better.
Seeing a few other threads on here that seem to provide situations similar to mine that have resolved after realising they were caused by TMS and taking the appropriate action has been greatly encouraging. There's more than one but this was the one that made me decide to actually post myself
http://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/my-complete-story-warning-this-will-be-long.4176/#post-25490 (My complete story -warning: this will be long.)
Anyway, thank you so much for reading all that. I'm sorry it was so long!
Any responses would be greatly appreciated!