I've been journaling per Dr. Scott Brady's 6 week program. I'm now exactly 5 weeks into it, and I can't tell if it's helping or not. Physically I'm not feeling noticeably better but I am noticing some subtle changes. The best part is I'm sleeping better. Waking up less often during the night, and I get up feeling a little less crappy than before. Still crappy, but less crappy. But during the day I'm not really feeling any better than before. Emotionally I'm having periods where I feel more optimistic than I have in a long time, but I'm also having abrupt mood swings where I suddenly become very depressed for no apparent reason. I've written about lots of things, past and present, and I've been making emotional connections I never made before now. One recurring theme is being blamed, and sometimes punished, for things that weren't or aren't my fault. I'm rather shocked at how many times and how many ways this has happened to me over the last 50+ years. I had no idea until now. Last night I wrote about one of the earliest such incidents in my life. I got so tense reliving the emotions that my arms got so tight I couldn't type any more. According to Dr. Brady, I should be noticing improvement by the 6 week mark. I'm almost there, but I'm not seeing it yet. I'm starting to worry that this my end up being just another failed treatment that looked promising at first then petered out to nothing. At least it's not making things worse as most of the physical treatments I tried. But if this doesn't work, I don't know if I can handle any further disappointment.