One of the things that must be understood about TMS symptoms is that the whole point is distraction from repressed emotions.
A panic attack IS the distraction (anxiety is a form of TMS), so why on earth would your brain need to give you palpitations at the same time? When you are relaxed and quiet and not moving around is a perfect time for palpitations to occur. My extreme attack happened at about 2am - I woke up thirsty, quickly drank a fair amount of water, and the palpitations started as I was lying back down in bed.
"Random" is usually considered proof of TMS.
Thanks for clearing it up some more. My physiotherapist has tested me again and felt my trapezius and tells me there is nothing structural wrong with it. And he tells me my arm and hand and fingers are painful and cold because they might react to the trapezius being tensed. And is more likely to be because i am tensed myself cause of the anxiety and stress i have.
It really sounds as if i am so tensed for 10years n0w and it shows with physical symptoms, plus that i am scared of the sympoms and they worry me. My head feels disconnected with my body. It wants to keep going to push myself and its angry at my body for not cooperating. I was always pushed by my mother to do the best education and i am now pushing myself to the max even though all these now physical signals that probably warn me that its going too fast. I can see it being a distraction because my mind wants me to be the best and is always mad at me for underperforming, always critizing me for not doing enough, not working hard enough. And these physical pains preventing me from doing a lot of work make the pressure worse, because i cant be the best because they are in the way so much. They make me mad and make me hate my body i feel completely disconnected of my body. And i am scared that it will never get better and i will be a nothing forever because i cant work because of the pains that get worse and worse. This causes a lot of stress and the circle gets worse and worse.
I think i am starting to understand what is wrong now. I am starting to be nice to myself and easing down on myself i also want to reconnect with my body, because it is me. I think meditating and really feeling the pain, noticing it without fear and telling myself its okay theres nothing phyisically wrong with you might help me, also being nicer to myself, being proud of what i did reach instead of being mad and dissapointed about what i havent reached yet I need to relax more and enjoy the present, i am always in the future thinking or when im depressed i think about how i felt happy when i was young which i never feel for the past 10 years anymore.
I think whats wrong is Im too hard for myself, im mean and pushing myself. If i do something good its normal and if i fail im a loser for myself. I am really obsessive and scared and thus also obsessively scared. I overwork my brain but are actively thinking i can do more and more but maybe subconsciousely i am mad because i never give myself a break + only being negative to myself. I even hated myself for ruining my body (trapezius) but i guess its not ruined but its rather my psyche that i ruined giving me physical symptoms.
I had to get this out and get a clear picture, i think i can start to get better, but it will not be easy but i guess i am on the right track already, finally starting to care for myself. I will be nice for myself, positive in general and taking meditation rests for my brain. I will excersise and i will work on my anxiety. I finally fully believe i am not structurally phyisically damaged, and i still have pain but my psyche is not where it needs to be so ofcourse i still have pain. I believe i can conquer this thing i will try to track the progression here. Thanks.
