Hey Marco - I can sympathize with you on a much smaller scale. My feet hurt as well and it is by far the hardest of all the TMS pains I have ever had to get out of my mind. You feel it with ever step and you can't get away from it by simply quitting an exercise or a sport or any general activity.
My pain is maybe a 3/10 but I am scared it will get worse and make the already annoying feelings I have unbearable when I hike, golf, hunt.
I feel anger/rage/crying on a scale like never before. I had lung surgery in December and something in me mentally changed. I have a hard time finding joy in the simple things I once did. I am more emotional where I coasted through life never letting the small stuff get to me. So I am searching myself for any emotional relationship to my feet and repressed emotion, trying to make the connection.
I feel weak like you....how can an ex all-state baseball, football guy who hunts and can handle two chest tubes and one of the most painful surgeries without post op pain meds not be able to deal with this minor foot pain?
That bothers me so so so much. Why can I mentally handle real pain better than most people but this foot problem I allow control my life?
I think for me it is less to do about repressed emotion in the past and my minds inability to deal with the fear of the future with an issue. It might have started with a emotional issue in the beginning but my constant focus and fear of the future of the issue has created the monster. the emotional tie is gone and now it is the feeding of fear with each step I take.
Are you consumed with the pain and symptom checking like I am...the fear fueling?