Awesome, I was born in 72 too. You can call me Herbie, all my friends call me both. One day Eric the next Herbie

I want to express that calming your nervous system down with the meditations would be awesome to get you back into feeling better. The more you can get away from all your daily pressures and just get some calmness and relaxation going at this point would be great for you. As you know if you focus on the pain with any doubt and fear then that will be a source of pain.
So it would be good to release it all during your meditations when you get back to doing them. Just do like 10 minutes to get away from every distraction you can think of. Get someone if you can to watch the babies for those 10 minutes twice a day to go and turn off all electricity to your room and just lie there and think of nothing but your breathing. Doing this just twice a day starting out will help you re-set your balance thus giving you less stress and tension thus less pain.
Start here, you said you had some good with it, stay with the meditations for life. They will be a main stay in keeping you pain free.
Do something every day that will make you laugh too so you can experience more fun ok. Take some walks and enjoy the springtime. Breath in the fresh air and enjoy hearing the sounds of the wind and hearing the birds chirp as you watch their different colors feed your vitality.
Let go of the sadness or depression, it's just thoughts of helplessness thought of over and over -- now you have keys of hope. You can always change your thoughts to those emotions by thinking about how you are going to feel when you heal all the way and then believe you are already there.
You will have to break your conditioning so when you decid to do the SEP program here you will be thankful you did.
http://www.tmswiki.org/ppd/Structured_Educational_Program
This way you will be able to put together a protocol of tools that will be very beneficial in your healing ok.
I want you to know that I really understand about your headaches. I used to get migraines everyday. I learned that self - pressure on myself to get things done during the day was the culprit. Since I have been pouring on all the tools I mentioned above I am almost free from headaches altogether. I still have one every now and then if I slip back into the old tensive thoughts ( unconsciously) meaning it happens in my sleep. I have to really give myself lots of self compassion at these times and then I'm all balanced again -- Hope this helps
Bless you
P.S. That thing you want to do but haven't done yet, in time when you just know what it is -- just go and do it.
This act of doing will also have special healing effects for you.
Oh and the book will be a pleasure to you. Thank You for your kindness. You will be very pleased. I answer a lot of questions that are asked often here at the wiki. It should really give you plenty to learn so you can achieve your healing.
