Since I discovered TMS theory, I've tried to put what I've learned into practice as best I can. But my physical distractions are getting worse and worse. My body tension is so great now I have difficulty performing even simple tasks, particularly those that require manual dexterity. Ironically, doing things like jumping jacks and push-ups aren't too difficult, but simple walking is. Everyday tasks like brushing my teeth, washing and drying my hands, making a sandwich, etc, make my whole body hurt. I do notice some exceptions, which confirms the TMS. For example, when I dry my hands I usually have great difficulty manipulating the towel. But if I get up to use the bathroom after a couple hours of sleep, I can can usually manipulate the towel normally. When I'm most conscious of the pain and stiffness I try to recognize that it's just a trick, or focus on some emotional issue, but that's really hard to do when my attention is on the immediate task I need to get through. It's too much to handle the task, the pain, and my mental/emotional stuff all at once, so my consideration of the latter usually gets dropped. Then I feel guilty that I'm not focusing on dealing with TMS directly enough, and that's what's keeping me from getting better. Not sure where to go from here.