Hi all, Just wondering if anyone got to the stage I am at with their healing in TMS. I have thrown everything I have at this healing for the last 7 months and feel that in the long run I haven't really gotten anywhere. I have journalled tonnes, even honestly to the point of real pain (after watching Nicole Sach's video), have meditated, visualised, affirmed and done as much as I could. I had a few months where the pain had decreased a little, but realistically it hadn't too much as I was still on 4 quite strong painkillers a day. I have been to see my doctor today about what other pain killers I could possibly have as I felt that my body is becoming tolerant to my current prescription, and he was very understanding. He talked me through things, but has said that I can't live forever on painkillers. I will continue to grow tolerant and work my way up through the pain killing ladder until I end up on morphine or something. Obviously I don't want that. I have become so despondent as I really believed I have TMS, but just lately the difference in my story to so many others has made me doubt. It definitely helped to resolve some shoulder, neck and upper back tension I was having, but it hasn't touched the pain in my lower back. That has remained as bad as ever and I am still no where closer to getting to the point of dropping my reliance on the pain medication to allow me to function. My doctor seriously wants me to consider surgery. I know that this doesn't work for some, but it is becoming my only option to hope for some improvement to allow me to be a good husband and father. I was hoping that people knew of others who got to this point even after finding out about and trying the TMS approach for so long. Thanks for the understanding and support you've all given in the past folks - I really hope I can get over this hump but as the title suggests, this may be it for me for the time being.