I've not posted for a while. I'm feeling at such a low place right now that I don't know what to do with myself. Back pain is really bad, knees hurt, shoulders are in agony and I've now developed carpal tunnel syndrome as well. I could really use a helping hand right now. In terms of big life stuff I've got a toddler who's gorgeous but infuriating and a mother who's probably got dementia. There's another big issue I can't even bring myself to look at and I feel as if I can't talk to anyone about all this stuff because letting others know what's going on is so very difficult (fessing up to being so very imperfect I suppose). The loneliness is so tough. Where do I start?