This is my day 1. I don't have the book yet. Am using the wiki pages and have watched youtube videos. I have some all over body pain, but not a lot and I've always had really high pain tolerance (like I take care of my own broken toe and am back in normal shoes on day 3). What I have is strong anxiety and sometimes panic attacks. I've gone from being able to travel to consult with very large clients to pretty much house bound because leaving amps my anxiety and keeps me at the edge of panic attack. At one point, a public panic attack caused me to be kidnapped by an ambulance that wouldn't listen to me and landed me in ER. So, now avoiding public panic attacks is more than avoiding embarrassment, it's actually avoiding being taken hostage against my will (or so my body tells me). For me, panic attacks are real pain though. It's like having a bunch of knives stuck into my chest and abdomen. Another fun feature is that my 'how to jog' sub-routine has been disabled and I found out one day when I tried to run from a parking lot because of rain. My mind said run, my shoulders leaned into it, and my legs just didn't do it. There's no physical reason, they just don't seem to do it any more and I went right down on my face. I've been through a year of the medical industry testing and a year of drugs that have few if any positive effects. Been through three psychologists and one psychiatrist. They were all pretty much just seat warming for the pay check. I know that all of this is in my head. I completely understand that on an intellectual level. A friend suggested TMS when I described what I'm going through to him. So, that's why I'm here. I've read the week 0 and first days stuff. Wrote my response to the video. But, I'm not at all sure how you connect to emotions. That seems completely foreign to me at this point. I'm not a psychopath, just not a very emotional person.