Today I would like to express anger at past mental health therapist. As a teenager I saw a therapist who was a real jerk, and a few other words that were much stronger. He did not show any respect or compassion for me. When I truthful answered "I don’t know" to some of his questions he got very irritated with me instead of helping me figure things out. When I did not show improvement he called me a difficult patient and played blame the patient. After a while, I faked a recovery to get out of therapy. In short he was an easy person to hate. But my second therapist, who I saw in my 30’s was a very nice person who treated me with compassion and respect. I liked her as a person, and I feel like she helped me a lot. But the treatment was very different from what is discussed hear. She is a cognitive behavior therapist. The therapy focused very heavily on using thinking and logic to help work through emotional issues. One of the things she talked about was learning to ignore what she called the "lizard brain" and telling it there is no reason to be scared. This is the primitive part of our brain that sends out fight or flight signals when there is no real physical danger. Toward the end of the therapy I had mixed feelings. I had made lots of progress. And I felt like I had talked my childhood issues and current stresses to death. Yet something inside me did not feel 100% healed. My therapist felt I was well enough to end therapy and any doubts I had about ending it were due to minor insecurity. With what I have read now, I feel like maybe that was the opposite to the approach I should have taken. I discussed stuff, and I may have cried a few times, but I never experience the full on rage that was deeply buried during any of the sessions. Maybe I would have been better served by primal scream therapy or taking lessons in kick boxing. I feel angry that the therapy did not cover letting out my anger and feeling my rage. I am not sure if I feel angry at my most recent therapist. She was kind, competent and genuinely wanted to help me get better. But I do feel anger at the whole situation.