An Update (Slow + Steady)

[Scott G]

Well it's basically been two months (!!) since my last progress update, and I thought it was high time to post! I've started a new thread based on this one HERE.

Apologies once again for the long post! heh.

Improving...Slow + Steady
In a nutshell, I'm continuing to noticeably improve. Every day I continue to do my skills work (Somatic Tracking, Journal Speak, Journaling, IFS Parts work, Self-Compassion exercises); careful to put NO pressure on myself to either stick to some rigid schedule or have any expectations and desire to get better. The only expectations I put on myself is to keep doing the work and trust the process.

When I have a symptom (back pain, tingling feet, anxiety) instead of obsessing over it I just let it happen. Complete acceptance + allowance. Now, my PRT therapist and pain coach have certainly stressed how important it is to not put pressure on myself in all those many ways that your brain will interpret as danger, but it's this very forum - from people like @Rabscuttle, @Adam Coloretti (coach), @JanAtheCPA, @Cactusflower, @BloodMoon, and several others - where I think I really understood how critical that part was in healing.

My healing journey (starting in Jan/Feb) has been very slow, but steady. Thankfully, while I used to be a phenominally impatient person, the slow progress has not bothered me.


Everyone, Meet 'B'...!
I now talk constantly to that part of my brain that's been misfiring out of love and compassion. I call him 'B', because I'm lazy and couldn't think of anything better. When I have a symptom, I check in with 'B' - usually along the lines of:

"Hey there, I see you're reaching out to me with a symptom. I understand you still feel that's your job...but just know that you don't have to anymore. We've talked a lot about this, and I know it's really hard to not fall back into old habits. I'm here to listen. It's okay. We are working through this together. Maybe we'll do an exercise later if you don't mind?"

Oftentimes I don't say anything at all to 'B'. Just let it play out and 'ride the wave' until it passes - being mindful to continue on with whatever activity I was doing; which I do anyway, regardless of whether or not we have a conversation.

This ongoing conversation seems to have been incredibly beneficial for me. I started going it in earnest not long after a Curable IFS Parts class. If you'd have told me I'd be talking to my brain like this even a few months ago, I would have laughed very hard indeed and called you crazy.


A New Job Requires New Training
Lately I've been looking at all of this in a different yet similar light: That part of my brain that's been misfiring has had the same job for many years, and he knows I've given him a 'soft and gentle' pink slip. It's time to find a new job, 'B'. Just like in the real world, finding a new job sometimes requires new job training, and thinking of it in that way has really seemed to help -both me and 'B'. lol.


Setback / Extinction Burst
Of course, none of this is linear and I still struggle.......with doubts, fears, uncertainty, the works. It's just that those periods over time have become more infrequent and shorter in duration. In the morning of June 5th - a Friday - I awoke to a level of pain that I had not felt in months. I didn't know it immediately, but I was experiencing my first setback / extinction burst / etc. Whatever name you're comfortable with... I thought I might be able to avoid it but, alas, it was here. The 'why' it was here, and what happened next, makes for what I hope is an interesting story.


From Self-Compassion to Self-Indulgence
The Friday that I woke up in more pain than usual was the same day in which I was planning on stopping at Cormendi Health (my PRT provider) for Dr. Howard Schubiner's book signing. Dr. Schubiner and Dr. Stracks (owner of Cormendi) have been friends and colleagues for years, and I'd been hoping to attend this event for quite sometime. The days leading up to this Friday am had been fantastic - some of the most low-symptom days I've had in a long time. However, I was nervous about attending. I hadn't been out in a public gathering like that in quite some time. My theory was this:

'B' had been doing a great job and giving up a lot of his former duties, but now he had reached the point in which enough was enough. “Look Scott, I’ve been a team player and reluctant partner with you on this journey but I’ve got to put my foot down here. You’re planning on going to this event tonight that’s going to be very stressful. There will be a lot of people. You’ll have to ride an elevator (which I know you hate). You’ve not been to an event like this in over 6 months. I don’t think you should go. Here’s some pain to take your mind off of things and keep you at home where it's safe…”



Throughout the morning and into the early afternoon, the pain kept ramping up. A nasty spasm hit me at around noon. Nothing extremely horrible, thankfully, but intense. I kept calm, did some skills work, talked to 'B'. By 3pm, I was having serious doubts about going. Ugh Oh. By 4pm, I'd made up my mind to NOT go. I rationalized this as a self-compassion move, and what Alan Gordon calls 'acceptable avoidance'. This has really been beneficial to me at times, but when 5pm came around it was my turn to say 'enough is enough'. I told my wife, "I don't care if I have to crawl into that place. I'm f&%king going." I'm not brave by any stretch when it comes to my TMS, but I knew it was time to push through. The idea of 'flooding' (when you really go all out with an exposure episode, pain be damned) is not for me, but this felt different. Acceptable Avoidance + Self-Compassion had become Self-Indulgence.

It's not like I don't still treat myself to some acceptable avoidance, but now I'm much more mindful of what I'm really doing. Is it healthy, or just an excuse and crutch that ultimately sends my brain a message of DANGER?


The Threshhold, Dr. Schubiner, and Safety
A little after 5pm on Friday the 5th, my wife and I are in a Lyft ride on the way over. Cormendi is literally about 5 or 10 minutes to the North of us, but I almost had the car turn around twice. I was getting bites of pain as I looked out the window along Damen Avenue. "Bah, I'm committed now."

After riding the elevator up to the 4th floor, I crossed the hallway to the entry door of Cormendi. The very second my foot crossed the threshold into Dr. Strack's offices, something remarkable happened:

My pain instantly dropped by 80%.

Whoooooa. I'd heard about this sort of thing happening, but never imagined it would happen to me. Talk about backup confirmation that I have TMS. We mingled a bit, and then then it was time for the talk and book signing.

We went into the large conference room; where Dr. Schubiner and Dr. Stracks were chatting at the front of the room. I looked around and saw several top pain coaches who were connected to Cormendi in some way; including Jessica Dixon from Curable - one of my fav class instructors. It was then that I had an epiphany:

I was literally in the safest room on the planet for someone with TMS.

LOL. Funny, but true. I had two of the world's leading authorities on mindbody healing in front of me, and several amazing coaches and therapists as well. Dr. Stracks' intro speech was very moving, and Dr. Schubiner's talk was nothing short of amazing. Dr. Schubiner is, in my mind, truly the heir apparent of Dr. Sarno. In fact, several times throughout his talk he referenced his fondness and respect for Dr. Sarno, and that he was correct on nearly everything - at a time when a lot of the latest neuroscience knowledge and equipment (like the all-important fMRI machine) were not available. He even spoke of his own symptom event in which the pain vanished instantly as the result of a trigger! Hah!

I found myself first in-line for the signing, and had a nice quick chat with Dr. Schubiner. We stayed for 90min - originally I had been saying we would go only for the signing, and stay about 10min max.

Once we got home, my pain slowly crept back in after an hour - but at a much lower level. By Tuesday it was back to the low hum.

Here's a photo from the signing.
Left to Right: Dr. John Stracks, Jessica Dixon (excellent coach at Curable!), and Dr. Schubiner.

 

[JanAtheCPA]

@ScottG, that link asked me to sign in with Microsoft. When you are creating or editing a thread ,there is a button right next to Post Reply for Upload a File. Try that.

Nice post!

 

[Rabscuttle]

Great post Scott, thanks for the update. You’re putting in the work and seeing results. Love seeing how playful and lighthearted you are to yourself and your brain. The stakes have clearly lowered and it’s showing with your results. It really is inspiring.

 

[Diana-M]

Wow, @Scott G —what a great report! Congrats on your progress and thanks so much for sharing it with us! It gives hope. I’m also following your pattern right now of allowing and talking to inner parts. It seems to be working. Your example is really helpful.

 

[Scott G]

@ScottG, that link asked me to sign in with Microsoft. When you are creating or editing a thread ,there is a button right next to Post Reply for Upload a File. Try that.

Nice post!

Ahh, thanks for that. Was trying to figure out the best way. I've uploaded a couple of photos now!

 

[Duggit]

After riding the elevator up to the 4th floor, I crossed the hallway to the entry door of Cormendi. The very second my foot crossed the threshold into Dr. Strack's offices, something remarkable happened: My pain instantly dropped by 80%.

That is definitive proof your condition is TMS rather than something structurally wrong.

 

[Adam Coloretti (coach)]

'B' had been doing a great job and giving up a lot of his former duties, but now he had reached the point in which enough was enough. “Look Scott, I’ve been a team player and reluctant partner with you on this journey but I’ve got to put my foot down here. You’re planning on going to this event tonight that’s going to be very stressful. There will be a lot of people. You’ll have to ride an elevator (which I know you hate). You’ve not been to an event like this in over 6 months. I don’t think you should go. Here’s some pain to take your mind off of things and keep you at home where it's safe…”



I think this is spot on and a great analysis!

The thing I wanted to highlight, and people do get better with this language (although I'm not a big fan of it and I'll explain why) - I kind of see a bit of a potential clash (which can play out in the subconscious) between you telling yourself that your brain is "misfiring" and the brilliant analysis you just made of the pain as a protector.

Yes it's true that technically it's a "misfire" in the sense that we shouldn't have chronic pain - at least without it being structurally caused (although structurally caused chronic pain is very rare). In neuroscience terms this makes sense. But when it comes to TMS, your brain is really doing what it's supposed to do (it's the ultimate survival/protection machine - it's just protecting you from something other than structural damage), so is it really misfiring? The brain's mechanism is working perfectly, it's just the input that's wrong (there's nothing wrong with the machine itself - if you put the wrong petrol in a car it wasn't the car that was faulty).

You might think it's semantics, but given how important self-compassion is to TMS healing I don't think it is. If we look at our pain as our inner child (which makes a lot of sense to), it's often protesting and can be seen as a cry for help (to address our needs). A lot of TMSers have an inner child that was never listened to - and the rage can be seen to be coming out through the body at this. We need to soothe our inner child and really listen to them - give ourselves that self-compassion, often for the first time in our lives (which you are doing - which is wonderful).

Remember that our inner child, like all children, are often very sensitive (especially TMSers), so when you say that the brain is misfiring, I could see that as potentially another way in which the inner child feels dismissed. Our inner child could think "this is my cry for help, and you're saying it's a brain malfunction? How dismissing!". An angry child that feels dismissed only ends up shouting and screaming more.

Misfiring to me insinuates that the pain has no purpose (whether you look at it as a distraction, a message, or both (I am in the both camp) - it clearly does). If the pain is in fact our inner child crying for help, then it's just further dismissal of their needs. I think you understand this and your analysis is brilliant - if I were you though I'd consider throwing the idea of misfiring out the window and pulling it from your vocabulary - not only is it relevant based on what I just said about the inner child, but if we acknowledge the purpose of the pain I think that puts us in a more confident position to do something about it (I think with the idea of misfiring, you could potentially be sowing future excuses as then one could say something like "well it's misfiring and malfunctioning, there's something wrong with my brain" - there's nothing wrong with your brain really, in fact it's doing too good a job of protecting you).

I can't know this for sure - but based on what I've read - I would be relatively confident that Dr Sarno would agree. I never got the vibe that he thought the brain was faulty - especially given how clear he was on why it was happening

 

[Scott G]

I think this is spot on and a great analysis!

The thing I wanted to highlight, and people do get better with this language (although I'm not a big fan of it and I'll explain why) - I kind of see a bit of a potential clash (which can play out in the subconscious) between you telling yourself that your brain is "misfiring" and the brilliant analysis you just made of the pain as a protector.

Adam, you are so SPOT ON here. Whew. I do need to stop using that term! "Misfiring"....I'm not sure why I use that term in my writing because it's a poor word choice, and is definitely not accurate from a neuroscience standpoint. "Maladaptive" is really the correct term being used - much more accurate from the evolutionary development standpoint - and not accusatory or dismissive! lol.

Here's the weird part: I NEVER use that term 'Misfiring' when talking to my brain. I don't use maladaptive either. In fact, I don't use any language that could be seen as accusatory or judgmental. I start every day in the shower with a 'pep talk' for 'B', and just say "You've been doing it this way for a long time, and I understand that you were just trying to protect me, and I thank you for that. But we've been trying something different now for awhile that works much better, and I'm really happy with your progress..." Stuff like that.

I recognize that even using that term in my writing is not good, oof. Okay....now I need to do some apologizing to 'B' and soothe him a bit.

Thanks Adam, truly.

 

[Adam Coloretti (coach)]

I recognize that even using that term in my writing is not good, oof. Okay....now I need to do some apologizing to 'B' and sooth him a bit.

Perfect! - I love it - and you're welcome you're doing so well

 

[JanAtheCPA]

Or as I like to say, our brains are working as designed, through eons of evolution in the primitive world. It's just that the design works for shit in the tiny sliver of time that constitutes the modern world.

 

[Scott G]

Or as I like to say, our brains are working as designed, through eons of evolution in the primitive world. It's just that the design works for shit in the tiny sliver of time that constitutes the modern world.

YES! Perfect.

Okay, I've apologized to 'B' and he said "No problem, bro. Just don't let that happen again. Ever."
(just a little humor on this fine Sunday morning in Chicago, lol)

 

[Stracksstory]

Well it's basically been two months (!!) since my last progress update, and I thought it was high time to post! I've started a new thread based on this one HERE.

Apologies once again for the long post! heh.

Improving...Slow + Steady
In a nutshell, I'm continuing to noticeably improve. Every day I continue to do my skills work (Somatic Tracking, Journal Speak, Journaling, IFS Parts work, Self-Compassion exercises); careful to put NO pressure on myself to either stick to some rigid schedule or have any expectations and desire to get better. The only expectations I put on myself is to keep doing the work and trust the process.

When I have a symptom (back pain, tingling feet, anxiety) instead of obsessing over it I just let it happen. Complete acceptance + allowance. Now, my PRT therapist and pain coach have certainly stressed how important it is to not put pressure on myself in all those many ways that your brain will interpret as danger, but it's this very forum - from people like @Rabscuttle, @Adam Coloretti (coach), @JanAtheCPA, @Cactusflower, @BloodMoon, and several others - where I think I really understood how critical that part was in healing.

My healing journey (starting in Jan/Feb) has been very slow, but steady. Thankfully, while I used to be a phenominally impatient person, the slow progress has not bothered me.


Everyone, Meet 'B'...!
I now talk constantly to that part of my brain that's been misfiring out of love and compassion. I call him 'B', because I'm lazy and couldn't think of anything better. When I have a symptom, I check in with 'B' - usually along the lines of:

"Hey there, I see you're reaching out to me with a symptom. I understand you still feel that's your job...but just know that you don't have to anymore. We've talked a lot about this, and I know it's really hard to not fall back into old habits. I'm here to listen. It's okay. We are working through this together. Maybe we'll do an exercise later if you don't mind?"

Oftentimes I don't say anything at all to 'B'. Just let it play out and 'ride the wave' until it passes - being mindful to continue on with whatever activity I was doing; which I do anyway, regardless of whether or not we have a conversation.

This ongoing conversation seems to have been incredibly beneficial for me. I started going it in earnest not long after a Curable IFS Parts class. If you'd have told me I'd be talking to my brain like this even a few months ago, I would have laughed very hard indeed and called you crazy.


A New Job Requires New Training
Lately I've been looking at all of this in a different yet similar light: That part of my brain that's been misfiring has had the same job for many years, and he knows I've given him a 'soft and gentle' pink slip. It's time to find a new job, 'B'. Just like in the real world, finding a new job sometimes requires new job training, and thinking of it in that way has really seemed to help -both me and 'B'. lol.


Setback / Extinction Burst
Of course, none of this is linear and I still struggle.......with doubts, fears, uncertainty, the works. It's just that those periods over time have become more infrequent and shorter in duration. In the morning of June 5th - a Friday - I awoke to a level of pain that I had not felt in months. I didn't know it immediately, but I was experiencing my first setback / extinction burst / etc. Whatever name you're comfortable with... I thought I might be able to avoid it but, alas, it was here. The 'why' it was here, and what happened next, makes for what I hope is an interesting story.


From Self-Compassion to Self-Indulgence
The Friday that I woke up in more pain than usual was the same day in which I was planning on stopping at Cormendi Health (my PRT provider) for Dr. Howard Schubiner's book signing. Dr. Schubiner and Dr. Stracks (owner of Cormendi) have been friends and colleagues for years, and I'd been hoping to attend this event for quite sometime. The days leading up to this Friday am had been fantastic - some of the most low-symptom days I've had in a long time. However, I was nervous about attending. I hadn't been out in a public gathering like that in quite some time. My theory was this:

'B' had been doing a great job and giving up a lot of his former duties, but now he had reached the point in which enough was enough. “Look Scott, I’ve been a team player and reluctant partner with you on this journey but I’ve got to put my foot down here. You’re planning on going to this event tonight that’s going to be very stressful. There will be a lot of people. You’ll have to ride an elevator (which I know you hate). You’ve not been to an event like this in over 6 months. I don’t think you should go. Here’s some pain to take your mind off of things and keep you at home where it's safe…”



Throughout the morning and into the early afternoon, the pain kept ramping up. A nasty spasm hit me at around noon. Nothing extremely horrible, thankfully, but intense. I kept calm, did some skills work, talked to 'B'. By 3pm, I was having serious doubts about going. Ugh Oh. By 4pm, I'd made up my mind to NOT go. I rationalized this as a self-compassion move, and what Alan Gordon calls 'acceptable avoidance'. This has really been beneficial to me at times, but when 5pm came around it was my turn to say 'enough is enough'. I told my wife, "I don't care if I have to crawl into that place. I'm f&%king going." I'm not brave by any stretch when it comes to my TMS, but I knew it was time to push through. The idea of 'flooding' (when you really go all out with an exposure episode, pain be damned) is not for me, but this felt different. Acceptable Avoidance + Self-Compassion had become Self-Indulgence.

It's not like I don't still treat myself to some acceptable avoidance, but now I'm much more mindful of what I'm really doing. Is it healthy, or just an excuse and crutch that ultimately sends my brain a message of DANGER?


The Threshhold, Dr. Schubiner, and Safety
A little after 5pm on Friday the 5th, my wife and I are in a Lyft ride on the way over. Cormendi is literally about 5 or 10 minutes to the North of us, but I almost had the car turn around twice. I was getting bites of pain as I looked out the window along Damen Avenue. "Bah, I'm committed now."

After riding the elevator up to the 4th floor, I crossed the hallway to the entry door of Cormendi. The very second my foot crossed the threshold into Dr. Strack's offices, something remarkable happened:

My pain instantly dropped by 80%.

Whoooooa. I'd heard about this sort of thing happening, but never imagined it would happen to me. Talk about backup confirmation that I have TMS. We mingled a bit, and then then it was time for the talk and book signing.

We went into the large conference room; where Dr. Schubiner and Dr. Stracks were chatting at the front of the room. I looked around and saw several top pain coaches who were connected to Cormendi in some way; including Jessica Dixon from Curable - one of my fav class instructors. It was then that I had an epiphany:

I was literally in the safest room on the planet for someone with TMS.

LOL. Funny, but true. I had two of the world's leading authorities on mindbody healing in front of me, and several amazing coaches and therapists as well. Dr. Stracks' intro speech was very moving, and Dr. Schubiner's talk was nothing short of amazing. Dr. Schubiner is, in my mind, truly the heir apparent of Dr. Sarno. In fact, several times throughout his talk he referenced his fondness and respect for Dr. Sarno, and that he was correct on nearly everything - at a time when a lot of the latest neuroscience knowledge and equipment (like the all-important fMRI machine) were not available. He even spoke of his own symptom event in which the pain vanished instantly as the result of a trigger! Hah!

I found myself first in-line for the signing, and had a nice quick chat with Dr. Schubiner. We stayed for 90min - originally I had been saying we would go only for the signing, and stay about 10min max.

Once we got home, my pain slowly crept back in after an hour - but at a much lower level. By Tuesday it was back to the low hum.

Here's a photo from the signing.
Left to Right: Dr. John Stracks, Jessica Dixon (excellent coach at Curable!), and Dr. Schubiner.

Hey thanks for sharing your update. I learned so much from your post and story. I was encouraged by your story of pushing yourself (compassionately) to go to the signing. So often I just need courage, and stories like yours help a lot.

 

[Booble]

Bravo! So many good gems in this.
I especially like, "Acceptable Avoidance + Self-Compassion had become Self-Indulgence."

May I ask after you fired "B" what new job you have given him?

Editing to add: I completely relate to how your pain ramped up as it was time to go. I have the same only for me it's not pain but my head clogs up and I feel a light form of dizzy. Hard to plow through but in doing so it clears up once passed the initial "danger." (fear). One time I had to give a keynote address before a large room of people. I was fine right up til when the breakfast was finishing up. And when the host started to introduce me my heart was pounding like I was going to die and thought there was a good chance I would faint while walking to the front. I managed to get up there and after the first few minutes all cleared and I had a great time speaking and interacting with the audience.

 

[Scott G]

Bravo! So many good gems in this.
I especially like, "Acceptable Avoidance + Self-Compassion had become Self-Indulgence."

May I ask after you fired "B" what new job you have given him?

Editing to add: I completely relate to how your pain ramped up as it was time to go. I have the same only for me it's not pain but my head clogs up and I feel a light form of dizzy. Hard to plow through but in doing so it clears up once passed the initial "danger." (fear). One time I had to give a keynote address before a large room of people. I was fine right up til when the breakfast was finishing up. And when the host started to introduce me my heart was pounding like I was going to die and thought there was a good chance I would faint while walking to the front. I managed to get up there and after the first few minutes all cleared and I had a great time speaking and interacting with the audience.

Ahh, lol. I realized that I failed to post B's new job description! I've kindly said to him: "If you really want to protect and help me, then perhaps instead of flipping the pain and tingling feet switches - or any other uncomfortable symptom - you could find ways for us to feel good. Help us to feel calm & relaxed. Joyful and content. We've been doing some great work together in dealing with those difficult emotions and feelings thru Journal Speak and other exercises, and you've really done an excellent job at easing off of the pain. We've still got work to do there, but it strikes me that just backing off from sending the pain signals might not be enough for you! So, if you're interested, I'd invite you to take on a new role. I know you would do an amazing job. You know I love and care about you. Let's talk later."

This isn't just me writing this for sake of the forum. I literally repeat this to B every morning - or a variation; sometimes shorter, sometimes longer. A little bit later I'll check in; for example: "Hey B, I want to thank you. I bent over earlier and you've always given me a little 'conditioned response' twinge of pain, but you didn't this time. We've been talking a lot about reducing the conditioned response symptoms so, again, thank you."

When symptoms do present themselves, I've started to shift from accepting/allowing and ignoring, to accepting and sometimes discussing. "Hey B, ahh, you've given me a little zinger. It's okay. I hear you. I see you. I'm listening. It's okay, there's no danger. We are safe. Is there anything you'd like to share - something I should know? Well, you've been doing so well lately, but I understand. I'm just going to go ahead and continue on with what I was doing."

Love that story you shared!

 

[Booble]

Ahh, lol. I realized that I failed to post B's new job description! I've kindly said to him: "If you really want to protect and help me, then perhaps instead of flipping the pain and tingling feet switches - or any other uncomfortable symptom - you could find ways for us to feel good. Help us to feel calm & relaxed. Joyful and content. We've been doing some great work together in dealing with those difficult emotions and feelings thru Journal Speak and other exercises, and you've really done an excellent job at easing off of the pain. We've still got work to do there, but it strikes me that just backing off from sending the pain signals might not be enough for you! So, if you're interested, I'd invite you to take on a new role. I know you would do an amazing job. You know I love and care about you. Let's talk later."

This isn't just me writing this for sake of the forum. I literally repeat this to B every morning - or a variation; sometimes shorter, sometimes longer. A little bit later I'll check in; for example: "Hey B, I want to thank you. I bent over earlier and you've always given me a little 'conditioned response' twinge of pain, but you didn't this time. We've been talking a lot about reducing the conditioned response symptoms so, again, thank you."

When symptoms do present themselves, I've started to shift from accepting/allowing and ignoring, to accepting and sometimes discussing. "Hey B, ahh, you've given me a little zinger. It's okay. I hear you. I see you. I'm listening. It's okay, there's no danger. We are safe. Is there anything you'd like to share - something I should know? Well, you've been doing so well lately, but I understand. I'm just going to go ahead and continue on with what I was doing."

Love that story you shared!

Fantastic new job description for B!
You are so nice and kind and gentle with B. He must feel very safe and comforted by you.

I have talks with my insides too. Mostly with "Little Booble" and "Teenage Booble." Teenage Booble has quite a potty mouth!"
I've mentioned this before but one time my immune system decided to join the chat. It basically told me to stop micromanaging it."

 

[Scott G]

Fantastic new job description for B!
You are so nice and kind and gentle with B. He must feel very safe and comforted by you.

I have talks with my insides too. Mostly with "Little Booble" and "Teenage Booble." Teenage Booble has quite a potty mouth!"
I've mentioned this before but one time my immune system decided to join the chat. It basically told me to stop micromanaging it."

Teenage Boobie!, lol. That's going to be the name of my new country punk synth band right there. What did you end up doing when it told you to stop micromangaging!?

 

[Cactusflower]

Teenage Boobie!, lol. That's going to be the name of my new country punk synth band right there. What did you end up doing when it told you to stop micromangaging!?

If you’d be open to switching out the synth for a Farfisa compact or a Vox Continental, I’d play the keys for you…

 

[Booble]

Teenage Boobie!, lol. That's going to be the name of my new country punk synth band right there. What did you end up doing when it told you to stop micromangaging!?

Booble, Scott, Booble. Not Boobie.

When it told me to stop micro managing I learned something. "We" talked about involuntary bodily systems versus voluntary and how the involuntary ones function much better if I stop worrying about them and let it take care of them for me. It promised to take good care of me and I promised to trust it.

 

[Scott G]

If you’d be open to switching out the synth for a Farfisa compact or a Vox Continental, I’d play the keys for you…

NICE! While I'd love to have the real keyboards, I have the software modeled version of each from Arturia - which sound really great. Now that I think about it, I've only heard the Vox in person and never the Farfisa! heh.

 

[Scott G]

Booble, Scott, Booble. Not Boobie.

When it told me to stop micro managing I learned something. "We" talked about involuntary bodily systems versus voluntary and how the involuntary ones function much better if I stop worrying about them and let it take care of them for me. It promised to take good care of me and I promised to trust it.

HAHAHAH!!!! Doh! This is why I need to get to the optometrist, stat! My progressive lenses are 3 years old, and it's showing. Yeah, when I put my nose up to the laptop screen it definitely says Booble....

Love that explanation about the micromanaging. Tnx!