Hey all - Well I have had some really good days of late. I am on around day 8 of sleeping without any sleeping aids aside from 1 unisom. While my sleep is no way back to normal, I am getting around 5.5 to 6 hours of constant sleep a night. I still hope to get back to my 7-8 norm from November and before. I am so worn down by ths TMS. I am unsure if I am focusing on the proper things to resolve this. I am 100% on board now that I have tension causing my head and eye issues. I can feel the tension in my temples, eye muscles, back of head,neck. Having had two eye exams and an MRI I know there can't be anything sinister taking place. The fact that I can feel the tension and when I came to this conclusion my neck and back got even more tense shows me my body knows that I know now whats going on. I just don't seem to be lucky enough to have the realiztion take my issues away. Could be that since I have allowed the stress to go on so long that anxiety set in it is going to take more. I did a test yesterday...my Dr. asked me to try a anti-Inflam medicine called meloxicam. So yesterday I took twp as he prescribed and I had zero vision issues. I was also relaxed with Church and family time. Now this morning, I had some anxiety and eye issues...temple tension knowing I had to work in front of my computer all day and drive. The bounces from the car seems to make my issues worse,almost like the bounces jar my tense neck and head. So I have 2 months of constant stress about my head and eyes to rid myself of. My therapist really has no structure to our discussions. He keeps asking me to talk and then we spiral off into my family history or my perfectionism. He asks me to step back when I am anxious and talk to the fear so I can release its burden. I know he thinks that some repressed emotion is causing all of this but sometimes I wonder if it isn't simply that I am scared that my vision will be off forever and my head will feel tense. I don't want to feel this way with spring coming up, vacation and golf/fishing....playing with my son etc... Could it be as easy as I am tense becuase of the way I feel and the anxiety it causes? I know I was abandoned as a child from my mother....and maybe don't know how to sooth myself. I also know that the thought of me not feeling perfect bothers me.... It just feels like I am fearful of not being able to enjoy my family time. I have been trying to only think positive thoughts and been journaling positive thoughts. I feel like I just need to try and relax and roll with the vision issues and one day they will go away.