Alone in pain

Hello people,

First of all, I would like to apologize for my English since I'm a French Canadian.

I started to have back pain in 2010 when I was 17 years old. I was in a great shape since I played hockey and workout during my entire life. But the morning I felt something was wrong in my low-back changed my life.

I passed many tests (CT scan, MRI, X-Ray) and saw many specialists (doctors, chiro, physio, acunpuncture, spine treatment,etc.) and the pain stayed.

According to the results, I had bulge discs in 2-3 different parts of my back and neck, but the pain was not directly where it should have been. I also had a big lombar sprain.

I read the Mind-body prescription last year and it improved my condition of 100% during few months. I was having pain in my mid-back when I was breathing, and even when I was waking up in the morning. After 1 week of reading, it stopped. I came back to the gym, did heavy squats and deadlifts all summer long, with no problem at all. I was free again.

After the summer, I went to the gym and did some legs workout, as usual. The next morning, when I woke up, I felt the worst pain I've ever had in my entire life. I needed 10 minutes to get up correctly and get a shower. Since then, I have a HUGE problem in my left butt and leg. I can't raise my leg very high since 6 months. I hear a "crack" in my butt when I stand up and I have also pain in my groin when I raise my leg for picking a sock or something. Sometimes, it stops and my leg is fine, but for about 1 or 2 days max. It is as if I had lost complete use of my leg.

Right now, this situation is very hard for me. I know I have a problem with TMS (I have skin problem, I had headache problems, I have problem with my stress), but nobody can help me where I live. I asked my doctor about the book of Dr Sarno and that I had a 100% relief last year, but he can't totally agree with this solution. He said that it was maybe a sciatica problem, but I can't find out how and why I have this problem.

I'm all alone, 22 years old, finishing engineering school, still in good shape since I workout "when I feel that I can". The worst part is that I can't go 100% since I'm afraid to have pain. My dream is to come back on the ice again. I didn't play a real hockey game since 2011.

Thank you for taking the time to help me and, maybe redirect me to a French therapist in Quebec or near Ontario, Canada. As I said in the title of this text, I'm feeling alone in this and I will not be able to live my life with pain.

 

Hi migperreault,

Welcome to the forum! Sorry to hear you haven't been able to play hockey since 2011 because of the pain. That much be really tough for you. If it's any encouragement, I have TMS and was able to go back to karate recently. It felt like an amazing victory for me!

I'm from Quebec, too, and as far as I know, there are no TMS doctors or therapists in our area. I've done Skype sessions with a TMS coach who lives all the way on the West coast of the US. It worked out great. I highly recommend it. You can also do the structured education program on this Website. It's free and you can get support from the people here any time you want. The program is designed to teach us about TMS and gives us techniques to get in touch with ourselves so we can heal.

And your English is awesome! Don't worry about that at all

Best of luck to you!

 

Hi, you two. Mig, you are not alone. Blake and I and lots of others in the TM community on this web site are with you, either going through the TMS healing process in the Structured Educational Program, free in the subforum of this web site, or we have healed through it, as I healed from severe back pain by believing 100 percent that it was caused by repressed emotions. Those went back to my childhood.

You are both living in a beautiful country.When I was younger, I went on wilderness canoe trips in Quetico and often went on the Ontario side. The peace and beauty of those trips have sustained me over the years and are my visualizations while meditating. Good luck healing. It takes some Mindbody work, but it does come.

 

Thank you for your support. I will follow the Educational Program.

It's strange, but I feel like I would recover in a second if a doctor or something would say to me : Hey, I know what you have, it's not bad, it's not your back, just calm down, you're alright.

I say this to me every morning, but sometimes it's hard to believe only in what I read in a book in my second language. It's also hard to believe when your leg can't raise more than a few inches.

I've always had problems such as eczema, migraine, feeling ill when I was young, etc. I had problems with some parts of my body because of a hit or something on the ice (elbows, foot) but I always healed quickly.

Now, the pain goes everywhere, but never stops. When I move, I feel good. When I stop to move, it's getting worse.

I hope that I'll go better when I'll learn more about this.

Thanks again,

Miguel

 

Miguel I would like to join in by saying you are not alone. This community is filled with the most caring and compassionate people.
Don't ever hesitate to ask a question!
The educational program will be a wonderful tool for youto work with and lots of support along the way.

Warmly, Susan