Day 8 AHA Moments

[koolkat]

Questions to Ponder-what stress is connected to your pain.

As I was thinking back about when my leg pain began, I remembered that it started spontaneously without any obvious injury or muscle pull. It was just an uncomfortable, nagging tingling pain in the back of my upper thigh. That pain began a year and a half ago. Massage, heat, ice, medication and physical therapy helped temporarily but the pain always returned especially while I was sitting. When I looked at what was going on in my life during that time, I suddenly remembered that a dear friend had died unexpectedly about two months before my pain began. In reflecting on my emotions, I think her death created in me an anxiousness and fear of my own mortality. I am a Christian. My stress also is because I have been wrestling with doubt and trusting God for my eternal life. This was my AHA moment. I'm on a journey of healing and learning to trust God for my earthly and eternal life.

 

[JanAtheCPA]

Fear of mortality is an important acknowledgement, and one that we are not always encouraged to express - which is why it often contributes to repressed rage.

Another emotion related to death, which I allowed myself to fully experience two years ago when I suffered two losses in less than a month, was abandonment, and its close relation, isolation. Being able to understand that I felt abandoned by two important people was something I would not have had a clue about in my past life (before this forum). This knowledge really helped me through a devastating period of time in my life.

~Jan

 

[koolkat]

That's very true. There is a keen awareness of how different life is without that person in it. What has helped me in remembering the treasured moments that I had with my friend and the joy she brought to my life.