This is my Day 1 post about "the level of acceptance I have of the TMS diagnosis, and any doubts or worries I have at this point". As a bit of background, my list of symptoms includes Acid Reflux (GERD) - 10+ years Constipation - 10+ years Extreme neck and shoulder tension (my left shoulder is visibly raised) - 5-10 years Repetitive Strain Injury (RSI) affecting typing and other activities - 10 years Knee pain - 2 years Neck/shoulder/back pain from reading printed material - 1-2 years Low grade background anxiety that occasionally intensifies - 10+ years Strain in my vocal chords from singing - 10+ years A large part of me believes that all or most of my symptoms stem from TMS or its equivalents. I'm a perfectionist and a high achiever. I'm competitive and highly self-critical. After going through Alan Gordon's TMS Recovery Program, I've come to realize how preoccupied and fearful I can get around my symptoms. I've also uncovered a huge number of destructive thoughts. Finally, I've come to realize that while I used to think I had healthy self-esteem, it is actually conditional on my accomplishments. I have a real need to be and look good. In addition to these personality traits and though patterns, I've discovered through journaling that I have unexpressed anger and grief from earlier in my life. Doubts Maybe the tension in my body won't go away after addressing my unconscious emotions. My there IS something wrong with my knee... (But then why did it get a lot better after finding out about TMS?) Maybe my RSI is more complicated that TMS. Can this really help my acid reflux? Worry: What if I do this program and I'm still not better?