allinthemind
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Hi,
I'm Lee, 36, a secondary school teacher of 9ish years from Barry near Cardiff in South Wales, UK. Only recently discovered the condition known as TMS, bought the Dr. Sarno book 'Healing back pain' about 3 weeks ago. Have it as an audio book, I'm on my 2nd listen now.
I've had lower back pain for around 15 years, I remember as a young man out drinking with friends I would feel the need to extend my back by bending forward or crouching. Didn't think anything of it at the time the symptoms have gradually become worse and spread over the years. I have suffered with lower back pain, glute pain, shoulder pain, groin pain, calf pain and neck pain mainly my left side, also get tension headaches. I do seem to have pain throughout my torso particularly in my chest. During my mid-late twenties I had chest pain and I automatically assumed it was heart trouble. I trained as a teacher when I was 25/26 and during this time I also experienced palpatations. After further tests the docs concluded I have a healthy heart and it must be muscular. More recently I have constant neck pain (left side), lower back pain (particularly mornings upon waking and when stood still doing dishes or something), constantly seem to have a fuzzy head from poor sleep and get weakness in glutes when stood still and when running (initially).
I have seen many different therapist and specialists about my back but not had any real concrete diagnosis. Seen Chiropractors, Osteopaths, had sports massages, had dry needles, scan and x-ray didn't show any abnormalities so no diagnosis from docs apart from tension and inflammation.....great thx doc. More recently since Dec 2014 been researching and having Alexander Technique lessons. Then I came across Dr. Sarno's 'Healing Back Pain', the booked ticked all the boxes for me physically and mentally. The only problem is I cannot find a local TMS practitioner in order to get properly diagnosed, however I am so convinced in it being TMS that I am due to start the program shortly.
I feel I have become a person that shows and even feels very little emotion, I would say though that I put a lot of thought and brain power into my surroundings and my awareness of what is going on outside instead of what is going on inside. I know that I need to change this around and be more aware of what is going on inside as a priority. I feel that I have a defense up all the time (not meaning I get defensive and retaliate), my mind is protected by others that can verbally harm me. I feel little emotion if someone tries to belittle or target me anyway (I guess I laugh everything off). I rarely get angry or mad, even as a secondary school teacher I don't feel many emotions of anger/rage but I do feel happiness and proud when pupils do well. At home I rarely argue with my wife but I do get unhappy with my children when they are not doing the things they need to be doing or are making my life hard. Particularly my 2 yr boy, he does make me feel rage at times.
I can't think of any moments in my life that would make me start repressing emotions and I guess this journey will hopefully help me uncover them.
So the journey begins.........Thanks for reading.
"Always focus on the brain not the pain"
I'm Lee, 36, a secondary school teacher of 9ish years from Barry near Cardiff in South Wales, UK. Only recently discovered the condition known as TMS, bought the Dr. Sarno book 'Healing back pain' about 3 weeks ago. Have it as an audio book, I'm on my 2nd listen now.
I've had lower back pain for around 15 years, I remember as a young man out drinking with friends I would feel the need to extend my back by bending forward or crouching. Didn't think anything of it at the time the symptoms have gradually become worse and spread over the years. I have suffered with lower back pain, glute pain, shoulder pain, groin pain, calf pain and neck pain mainly my left side, also get tension headaches. I do seem to have pain throughout my torso particularly in my chest. During my mid-late twenties I had chest pain and I automatically assumed it was heart trouble. I trained as a teacher when I was 25/26 and during this time I also experienced palpatations. After further tests the docs concluded I have a healthy heart and it must be muscular. More recently I have constant neck pain (left side), lower back pain (particularly mornings upon waking and when stood still doing dishes or something), constantly seem to have a fuzzy head from poor sleep and get weakness in glutes when stood still and when running (initially).
I have seen many different therapist and specialists about my back but not had any real concrete diagnosis. Seen Chiropractors, Osteopaths, had sports massages, had dry needles, scan and x-ray didn't show any abnormalities so no diagnosis from docs apart from tension and inflammation.....great thx doc. More recently since Dec 2014 been researching and having Alexander Technique lessons. Then I came across Dr. Sarno's 'Healing Back Pain', the booked ticked all the boxes for me physically and mentally. The only problem is I cannot find a local TMS practitioner in order to get properly diagnosed, however I am so convinced in it being TMS that I am due to start the program shortly.
I feel I have become a person that shows and even feels very little emotion, I would say though that I put a lot of thought and brain power into my surroundings and my awareness of what is going on outside instead of what is going on inside. I know that I need to change this around and be more aware of what is going on inside as a priority. I feel that I have a defense up all the time (not meaning I get defensive and retaliate), my mind is protected by others that can verbally harm me. I feel little emotion if someone tries to belittle or target me anyway (I guess I laugh everything off). I rarely get angry or mad, even as a secondary school teacher I don't feel many emotions of anger/rage but I do feel happiness and proud when pupils do well. At home I rarely argue with my wife but I do get unhappy with my children when they are not doing the things they need to be doing or are making my life hard. Particularly my 2 yr boy, he does make me feel rage at times.
I can't think of any moments in my life that would make me start repressing emotions and I guess this journey will hopefully help me uncover them.
So the journey begins.........Thanks for reading.
"Always focus on the brain not the pain"
