July 2015 I was living in a Waikiki hotel with my boyfriend. We had been there a few weeks when I woke up with a headache that lasted 6 straight months. I ate Advil like candy and stayed in bed for 12 hours a day during my final undergrad semester. One day, I decided to try Pure Barre. I woke up and instantly left the house for 2 weeks. It was the first break in the pain I had experienced. The pain has changed since then. I have extreme shoulder and neck muscle tightness to the point where I can’t sleep with my eye mask anymore or wear certain clothes. I take earplugs with me wherever I go in case the restaurant or movie is too loud. I ordered a menthol nose plug for when I’m around someone with perfume. I ordered special glasses to help with the lights at work. After 25 doctors, tens of thousands of dollars, different pills and injections, and unlimited amount of hope coming out of a new consultation for yet another chiropractor who believes my forward head neck posture is the problem, I’m done. I was able to to go a whole month in June with no migraines. Pain yes but no meds. I know there is a chance. I’ve been using the curable app off and on since July this year. However, I never successfully got rid of a full-blown migraine until last week when I read the first part of Mindbody Prescription with the help of a curable emotional meditation and then a visualization. It was a breakthrough. However I stayed home from work today due to a very strong episode after exercising for the first time in two weeks (two weeks ago I bench pressed too heavy and strained my neck muscles. Headache for a whole week.) It was fear I guess. I “took it easy” so that I wouldn’t get a migraine then I did anyways. Dr. Sarno discusses this at the end of the book that fear around physical activity may take longer. He was truly speaking to me. Even though I have a chiropractor appointment tomorrow, I will try to not expect anything and then stop going. At this moment, I still have pain from the latest attack but I’m hopeful there’s a future. Hopefully my perfectionistic ways and the need to know ALL the information right now won’t interfere with this program. Edit 30 minutes later: this came to me while in the shower. For years, even before the pain, I have always said that I have lots of pent up anger (even though I cry and complain and vent) and I feel sorry for the bastard who starts something and I have no choice but to take it out on them. I didn’t realize until now that I am the bastard and I’ve taken out the anger on myself. Wow.