Recent content by zclesa

Ok just a little update. I got home and had a full check at the optician's yesterday. Apparently, my normal long-sightedness has increased by double since the last check. I was actually surprised that this was causing such issues with reading because I suppose, I always considered myself to have...

@JanAtheCPA always nice to hear from you. I don't think 45 is middle age for me. I did a lot of hard living ;) I think 30 was middle age, maybe 35. I remember ruining my 29th year because I was so concerned about turning 30 and being "old". Luckily, I look much younger than I am. I expect I will...

Thanks @diane2530. I'll try reading with the glasses when I get home from hols and see if that makes things easier. Yeah, it's interesting how this ties into my whole background really. I was devastated when I got my period as a young girl. I think a lot of my TMS stuff stems from being...

@diane2530 I do have issues reading books as well, but can manage it. The text is not crystal clear, but I can read it. I can definitely see text more sharply through the glasses he gave me. My mum is long-sighted too and always holds a book quite far away from her to read. I'm probably...

Thanks @mrefreddyg. I do understand the not tolerating screen brightness is clearly TMS. But wasn't sure about my actual vision. So basically my "acquired astigmatism" is due to tension. But I think the not tolerating screen brightness might just be a conditioned thing now. Because I'm on...

I have been having a really hard time with reading on computer and phone screens for years. This is probably the number 1 thing preventing me from moving on with life. Despite using fl.ux and turning screen brightness down, it is uncomfortable to look at screens. It is 100 times worse when...

I never used to procrastinate at all. I was the kid who did my homework as soon as I got it and that continued into my work life. It's only since I've been off sick that procrastination has been an issue. Low energy, low motivation (when you feel like crap it's hard to feel motivated), and...

Ha, yes, I am really angry about the way the world works, but I am aware of that. Despite paying rent early every year for over ten years in both health and sickness, when I moved house, I was nearly homeless because no landlords would even consider taking on anyone who was paying for rent with...

I hear you, @JanAtheCPA. It's horrible, because we start out genuinely wanting to do something good. Helping others has always made my life meaningful and happy. But the lack of support ruins it all. And yes, the most caring, competent people come out of it damaged because we're the ones who...

Thanks, Diana. It's helpful to know you also relate to this. Some of us were trained in childhood to put our own needs last. I certainly was. None of my wants, needs, or feelings were considered as a child. I was very much shamed and guilted for existing. The only way to survive was to appease...

No, I don't think you need to uproot your life, But there needs to be a rage/soothe ratio. If you're working hard or doing things you don't like or have tough stuff in life going on, you need to schedule time for relaxation, joy etc. It is also not *just that*. I am working through PTSD...

I do keep in touch and I've just put in to adopt one of the cats! :)

Has anyone realised that their symptoms were sometimes a Body Says No type of thing? My symptoms get a lot better when I am enjoying myself. They tend to get better when I am with people I like. They get better when I am doing something meaningful. I just went abroad for 3 weeks to volunteer at...