Recent content by Satori

Thank you so much for taking time to write such a thoughtful reply. I am alone and do not have many friends to support me. So I really appreciated your reply and support. It meant a lot. @Cactusflower

Hi Guys, I was getting better...ran a 5k..relatively pain free for a couple weeks...and have now been in a cycle of pain for 3 weeks. I cant break it. My life is very stressful and I do as many things from the ed forum as possible. I just cant break out of this one. I feel like i am getting...

I have been working for a very long time on this. Somedays are good, but I never go more than a week before the cycle begins again. I read, meditate, pray, journal, listen to audio tapes. I do everything. But I am so tired of just trying to be pain free. It is literally a full time job. I am...

I definitely see aspects of myself in the day 11 success story already, although I have a long way to go. I guess it makes me wonder...will the work ever be done? Or will I have to journal forever? Or will my brain get retrained? Thoughts?

I have not told my sister that I feel she abandoned me and my children. I feel pretty much forgotten and angry that I have no family. I feel there were times I supported her, but she has forgotten and now feels that me and my children are a burden. I have not told her how I feel because we are...

I am realizing that one of my main triggers is a person I live with. I have a lot of fear and worry wrapped up in their behaviors and not being able to control them fills me with rage. If something happens, I can be in pain for days..even a week after a situation. How do you deal with a trigger...

In response to todays assignment...Yes, I am very critical of myself. I have made so many big life mistakes (multiple times) and I feel like my opportunity to turn it around is gone. I never had any guidance on how "to do life", so instead I lived never thinking that I would be "one of those...

So proud of you! You did the hardest part which was to start! This forum has been such a source of strength for me and it will be for your too! You got this! Congrats on Day 1!

I believe I have gotten to some emotions that I never realized before and I actually think some of my pain this week was fear of not being pain free! This feels like my last hope and this CANNOT fail. I MUST beat this. But in accordance with my extremely forceful personality, I am missing the...