Recent content by juderocketqueen

She's here with me now - you'd think we were best friends but I know all the issues swirling beneath! At least she is apologetic and understands the impact her actions (and those of my beloved step-father) had on me. We can love our parents and abhor their decisions and actions at the same time.

When did you last speak to your parents? was one of the questions asked. I have my mother staying with me at the moment. We had a row the other night (not uncommon). I did end up with me crying my eyes out and telling her how badly her thoughtless, narcissistic behaviour had affected me when I...

I'd be working full or part time, I'd be travelling, I'd be living a much fuller life. I'd walk, run, dance.

Ps. Love the storms!

Thank you, Plum. What an angel!

A quandary. I really feel I have few repressed emotions left! I have been working on this stuff for years and years and continue with this ‘digging’, plus journaling current stressors. Yet still I have pain. Neither is it moving around since I started the SEP. I am really quite stumped...

I am no expert but while you have fever I would say don't push through. You need to stabilise first. Others will have more info.

Great response. Thank you.

I have seen your posts. I was thinking of you and that prompted me to post!

Great. Think I know where the real.rage lies in past but today's rage needs working on... Things that keep me anxious.

Since starting the SEP I seem to be angrier and more irritable in a "Won't suffer fools gladly" way. This is interesting to me. I became a Christian about 3 years ago. Not been going to church for two months due to CFS relapse. I will go back to church eventually but I wonder if my seething...

Ellen, that is really encouraging. Thanks. Walt, I agree. Working on forgiveness