Recent content by Chris1138

Hang in there! I hit rock bottom back in September. It was a few months after I started posting here and things got worse and worse (after a brief improvement). My anxiety started to run away too. I finally broke down and saw a psychiatrist. I had sworn I would never need anti-anxiety or...

Thanks @ssxl4000. I think have been getting caught up in the end result and gotten away from just focusing on accepting the TMS diagnosis and thinking psychologically the last few days. Back to the 12 daily reminders.

Thanks @birdsetfree! That was exactly the reinforcement/reassurance I was looking for! I'm very achy and stiff today, but I'm going to stick to the plan and keep at it! :)

Hi everyone, I'm approximately 8 days (taken a few involuntary days off here and there as my work and parental schedule takes up most of my time) into the Structured Education Program. I started reading Dr. Sarno's books about 2 weeks ago now. I've had back pain that evolved into sciatic leg...

Hi Andy, Thanks for the words of encouragement. I really like your framing around a habit rather than a fixed pipeline of pain. I was at the symphony yesterday evening which usually would have been a nightmare of walking from the parking garage and sitting for hours, but I actually went long...

Hi everyone, After a week of TMS treatment and following the Structured Education Program I can certainly say that I have made progress in accepting the diagnosis. If I haven't accepted it 100% I'm very close - with my mind going to emotional and psychological thinking rather than imaging a...

Thanks for the reassurance @zclesa and @ssxl4000. Yesterday was pretty bad pain-wise and I found myself really unable to 'think psychologically' and instead was fixated on the pain which of course makes it worse. Today, seems much better so far.

Yes, it was a really strange sensation to find myself involuntarily talking to my child self! I think I cut myself a little short though and maybe bottled things up again too quickly. I'm a little concerned that ever since the journalling my symptoms seemed to be heightened. I went for a walk...

I just tried my first journalling session. I sat down and immediately had the same challenges as you @zclesa. I found myself writing descriptions of the events and analyzing it rather than tapping into my emotions. As I wrote, my sciatica just exploded. My leg was in tremendous pain and I...

Yesterday, my pain was up and I was struggling with accepting the TMS diagnosis. Today, it feels much easier. I know there will be ups and downs, but there are a lot of encouraging signs today that are making it easier to accept the TMS diagnosis: 1) No 4:30am wake-ups from pain since I started...

I did some thinking on my history with running after my post last night and I recalled that leading up to my back pain and sciatic pain I had been dogged with some patella/knee pain for about a year prior. At the time I assumed it was my form, and though it was quite painful, if I slapped a knee...

I know that accepting the diagnosis is going to be a big challenge for me. I've been trying to tell myself there is nothing wrong structurally with my back and going about my day, but my pain is so conditioned to kick in when I walk for more than a minute or two, or sit back in a chair. I did...