Hi everyone, After a week of TMS treatment and following the Structured Education Program I can certainly say that I have made progress in accepting the diagnosis. If I haven't accepted it 100% I'm very close - with my mind going to emotional and psychological thinking rather than imaging a herniated disc pushing in my nerves whenever I feel pain (which was my default in the past). I've certainly linked emotions to my pain flaring up. I noticed my pain ramped up over the weekend at certain stressors that I've been able to link with childhood trauma through journaling. It wasn't surprising but I hadn't necessarily been aware of the connection. The journaling has been pretty eye-opening as I've had some pretty intense sadness and anger come out of it (gritting my teeth so hard they ached afterwards). In fact, yesterday I had a deep sense of sadness kind of wash over me at work out of the blue and mild anxiety on my commute home. Both things I haven't felt in over a year and I'm coming to understand why my brain wants to protect me from feeling these things. At the same time, I've also felt a deeper level of happiness in moments - so overall I feel like I'm opening up to emotions that I've just turned off in the past year. My lingering concerns are around the pain more directly. I know it has been dominating my life, but I'm much more aware of how my mind goes to the pain or expecting pain nearly constantly. I'm not sure how to stop this. I also note that I have pain when sitting, laying on my back, and walking that remains unchanged since I've started the program and is possibly worse. It seems completely unrelated to emotions and stressors, but more of a constant. I'm doing my best to ignore it and practice outcome independence: I try to sit and "enjoy" what I'm doing despite the pain, but 5 out of 6 times it builds and builds to an absolutely unbearable point. My strategy right now is to flick away thoughts when my brain goes to the pain (I saw on the forum someone would tell themselves "I'm not getting on that train." so I've adopted "I'm not getting on that bus.") At times it works, sometimes it doesn't. I find myself worried that if I have a conditioned neural pathway response - what if I can't break it? Any advice on this would be appreciated!