Recent content by CalmIsTheCure

How am I being mean to.myself?

Just because I haven't spilt my life story here does not mean I have not gone deeper in my journalling or therapy. I have come to understand a lot about myself. Where its come from etc. So yes I have. My helplessness is coming from I have no idea how to heal. Maybe this forum isnt the...

San Miller says changing your state, finding joy, lifting yourself etc is suppression and you wont heal. You should just br sad if your sad etc. That makes no sense to me. So if you constantly feel like a victim she is basically saying embrace that. Everyone else says the complete opposite...

You are saying vulnerability but I feel like I have been vulnerable. Could you elaborate? I have a coach and ive been very open and honest and vulnerable with them. I have also been very honest and vulnerable in my journalling. I think at this point its about changing the identity and...

Ok imagine im sitting in front of you and I say to you give me some tough love, slap me awake. Whats the issue. Be brutally honest with me. Kick me up the arse. I think I probably know part of the problem i dont know how to solve it. Probably because it's the complete opposite to whst I know...

I dont know how. There is no position for rest or no pain. How do I stop and take a break in that situation

Ive lost any humour around this now.

You are all beint very lovely. Im just battle weary now. Ive tried. I really have. I deserve to heal. I have done everything ive been told to do. I feel alone. As usual

I dont wanna call the coach out. But the idea being that meditation is just escaping your reality. I dunno. I dont know what anyone is talking about anymore

Thanks. The pain is just so bad I dont think I can take it anymore.

A coach told me that if you prefer the meditation to being in your life then its bad. Your trying trying to escape your reality. I do.a meditation every night anyway. What u doing

I do not know whats perpuating it anymore and I wish someone would just sit with me and explain to me what needs to happen. Because I no longer understand. Clearly its just my way of being thats causing it then. I dunno. I Will go. I wont bother anyone anymore

If the mechanism of tms is about distracting you from your emotions and ive religiously journalled, cried, explored my emotional world. Felt my feelings. Been raw. Been honest. Been real. Why didnt it stop? Theres a flaw there with the mechanism then. I do not get much out of meditation...

Your amazing well done. Im disheartened because everything ive tried hasn't worked. . I stopped avoiding. Infact i cant avoid. . I did journal speak for months. I cried etc nothing changed. . I did the SEP. . I did meditation. . I did breathing exercises . I went back out to try and do...