Write a short post about the level of acceptance you have of the TMS diagnosis, and of any doubts or worries you may have at this point. Hi everyone! In my mid-20s, I had an acute bout with sciatica. I could barely stand up. After a couple weeks of physical therapy, I was mobile again. I do believe this was a physical injury. When I was 30, I was running on uneven ground. I slipped a little in a low spot and felt stabbing pain. I had to walk home hunched over. I went to multiple doctors over the next few years (because of moving) and was told I had a dysfunctional SI joint, after having disclosed that the first doctor had diagnosed as dysfunctional SI. Multiple rounds of physical therapy ensued. One of the physical therapists was able to do something with my leg that would make it "pop" back, ending in instant relief, but I was never able to replicate that myself at home even with the techniques she showed me. I always ended up in the same place, mostly mobile, but not able to bend at the waist without pain and really good at using my toes to pick things up off the floor! Sitting for a long time such as driving would leave me stiff for several days. I gained a fair bit of weight in part because any exercise that involved bending hurt so much. I blamed this for the pain also. I'm 42 now, and a few months ago I went to help my estranged spouse, who is severely disabled with rheumatoid arthritis, put down some vinyl floor planks because he couldn't get down on the ground to do them. I spent about six hours on the floor, and by the end I was pretty much just sliding myself around on my belly like a bizarre land seal because I couldn't stand to keep getting up and bending back over, the stabbing pains were so bad. The next day I could barely stand up. Some of it was muscle soreness from unused muscles, but I had to walk at a weird angle. It did get better within a few days, but I went back to my current PCP who wanted an x-ray. He said I had bone spurs and disk degeneration but couldn't tell me if that's normal for my age. It also didn't explain that my pain mostly is centered on where my hip bone and back bone meet, just like it was with the sacroilliac joint injury, and just radiates out from there. He wanted me to do physical therapy again. I haven't because physical therapists here don't have evening hours. I was looking for books to do physical therapy at home thinking maybe that would be better, and I came across Dr. Sarno's books. They weren't expensive, so even though my skepticism was high, after watching a few videos--by people who stood no financial gain from the sale of Dr. Sarno's works--sharing their experiences, I ordered one. It has been a few months since I read it. I'm not sure where I am at in my acceptance of TMS. Sometimes it makes a lot of sense. Sometimes I question the proposed mechanism of action. I am worried that accepting it may be hard or impossible for me to do. What would a life without TMS mean to you? It would mean being able to do active things with my friends and family and things I need to do at home without being crippled for days afterwards. It would mean being able to exercise more and getting healthier generally, especially as I am now definitely middle-aged and would like to go into my older years stronger and healthier than I feel right now.