I noticed many years ago that some of my symptoms would flare up when I had sexual encounters with someone I wasn't attracted to and had no desire for. I kept trying to brush off the connection between the symptoms and the physical exposure. (I did make some goodism excuses in the beginning) When it happened recently, I've found it hard to ignore the connection. I've felt really horrible feelings in my body since then and worse sensations when I'm around him. I'm still not sure if this is all coincidence. I'm irritable, feel a sort of suffocated rage that I can't get out, feel like I can't breathe deeply, feel like snapping at the sight and sound of his voice and mannerisms (kind of like an irritability that overcomes my body), feel a sort of floaty, numb, skin-crawly sensation in parts of my body that lead to a general sense of discomfort and a general feeling that I can't feel relaxed in my body. Also, twitchiness associated with that inability to relax my body. I've also been procrastinating a lot and having trouble doing what I need to do. In the past, I used to feel irritability after it happened, including extreme heightened sensitivities to sound that could lead me into a rage so painful that it felt uncontrollable. I tried doing a search to see if there was anything in these forums on sex and found nothing. Would love any thoughts on this. Also, I live with him and would love to leave and live some fantasy of a wonderful life, but I don't have anywhere to go, and I'm dependent on him to watch out for me due to health problems and low income.