Last year at this time, I had a freak accident during a medical procedure where my sacral nerve was pulled internally. The pain was horrific, my life flashed before my eyes and I knew that what just happened was serious. That turned in to the most painful summer of my life. I had to get an MRI to make sure I wasn’t internally bleeding. I wasn’t, but I had unimaginable sacral pain for months, sciatica, tingling, throbbing, sharp icepicks, pain to my feet. Over the counter painkiller couldn’t touch it and was basically incapacitated for at least 4 months. If I didn’t already work from home, I would’ve had to quit my job. It was during this time that some serious childhood trauma was unleashed. No doubt because it was stored in my sacrum. And the emotional pain made the physical pain worse. The continuous cycle. Here we are a year later and I seriously hoped that things would be different. While things ARE better, I’m still dealing with the consequences of that procedure. Still having sacral pain, nerve tingling, throbbing, IC, “pudendal neuralgia,” some icepick nerve pains. The main problem is, whenever I do emotional release exercises, it makes things 100x worse. Normally I wouldn’t mind and I know things need to get worse before they get better, but this knocks me out of functioning for 2 weeks. I’ve been working with a trauma therapist to try to balance all of this. It was such a freak accident and no one could've known. Don’t get me wrong, I certainly have my “how could this happen?!” and “if I never got that procedure I wouldn’t be dealing with this” breakdowns, but I get on with my life. People say the central nervous system can’t heal. I say that’s bullshit. And I’m not giving up because this gets on my last...nerve... (coping with humour).