My family did not express their emotions freely. I was a pretty emotional kid, so at an early age I learned to bury my emotions. My parents divorced when I was three, and my mother had a long string of boyfriends causing repeated experiences of abandonment in my life. I had a slight Scoliosis since childhood; the doctor told my mother and I that this might cause problems for me in the future. I had back problems in high school and used to jog in Central Park. I had some pain in my hip and saw a back specialist who told me to never run again because of the way my spine was structured. I heeded his advice but continued to ski, ice skate, dance at nightclubs, and walk for long distances. I was a social teen and went to a lot of parties. My level of physical activity was high during my mid-20s. I worked catering parties, became a fashion stylist and traveled a lot, living a regular life without the paranoia of re-injuring myself. During this time I was in a moderate car accident and I started going to a chiropractor, getting massages, and focusing on my healing. I broke up with a guy I was dating and lived on my own being an artist, making artsy films with a group of friends and feeling more like myself. At the same time I noticed that I felt really light-headed and had some worry related to this sensation. Some odd years later, I was in a major car accident and had a head injury. I had 7 staples in my head, no broken bones. After this accident I became really stiff in general and had a difficult time moving around freely; I became rather restricted and careful with my movements. Even though this was the case, I held jobs that were physical managing to do what I could to function, while hoping that no one would notice any of my physical limitations. Through experimentation I developed some coping strategies that helped me to function and make it through the day. I received Reiki treatments from a woman that sent me energy when I called her on the phone; I worked with her for years on my back pain. I became very spiritual studying many books on the healing arts. I let go of inappropriate friends and became a loner/ hermit. This new lifestyle served as a proper soul-searching platform for self-discovery. Being a very driven person, I managed to make it through graduate school although I had very intense pain in my neck, top of shoulders, hips, and jaw. It was difficult to give presentations when I felt light headed and it was also a great challenge to work with clients when I was in pain. In January, I had a series of medical tests that proved nothing was wrong with my body. On June 5, 2012, I heard about Dr. John E. Sarno and found out about the TMS Wiki, my life has shifted dramatically in many positive ways! I am healing! My new learning has helped me begin the process of retraining my brain toward accepting so-called unacceptable emotions and feelings. I am so grateful for a second chance at living my life more fully. It has been exciting to watch this long journey of living with pain unfold; each recovery is like finding a precious jewel in the ocean under the sparkling sun. I am so thankful for this community of like-minded people where we can help each other to help ourselves. As I gradually unwind from years of pain and suffering, I look to the future and am excited about dancing, doing yoga, and hugging people once again.