Hello dear peers in this most amazing walk, I am on my 4th day following the structured program. For a while nowI have read the books on TMS by Dr Sarno and Dr Schubiner. I have also read as many of your postings about your experiences. I have absolute confidence that I am on the right path and believe intrinsically on the TMS story...and I am in pain at the moment. Sometimes the pain in both my hips disables my walk. A difficult thing to take for a very fit person. And though what I feel is real, I debate plenty with my mind the reason for my pain. Also, every time I know that is time to sit and do the structured program, I get nausea and a feeling like I want to run away. I do not abide by the symptoms or impulses to sabotage myself. I valiantly confront a difficult story of upbringing though something in me cringes . It is almost as if I am in cognitive dissonance. I thank God for my background in psychology, otherwise I would begin to believe that I have a split personality. An interesting phenomena. I have many positive and loving friends, when I am with them in that positive realm of praising God and life for all the goodness that there is my pain disappears. This reinforces the fact that what I have is nothing short of TMS. The more I say that I am working on this TMS project and the more I smile and talk positively, the more the pain fades in the background. Thank you for allowing me to express the amazing internal and external experiences I am going through in this public forum.