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I think I might have TMS

Discussion in 'Support Subforum' started by Lz123, Aug 4, 2018.

  1. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Hi everyone,

    I've been suffering from chronic pain in both my forearms for about a year and a half now. The pain is similar to cubital tunnel syndrome, where the ulnar nerve is compressed in the elbow. During this time I've also gotten tennis elbow both arms and more recently wrist pain..again, in both arms.

    I've been to multiple doctors, I've done nerve conduction tests (2x), I've done several MRIs (neck, elbow), ultrasonography, PT, stretches, exercises, ice, heat, massage..you name it. A neurologist even asked me if I drink alcohol on the regular. All the tests are fine, except a bone marrow edema in my right elbow and a slight, almost unnoticeable thickening of something called plica in the same elbow. My right elbow pops a lot.

    Anyway, during this time I quit my job, went through 10 months of doing as little as I could with my hands (it's harder than you think) and nothing changed. I've been familiar with TMS for a while, almost as much as the pain lasts but I never gave it a real shot. Mostly I think my mistake was just not being patient enough (I expected miraculous results, like the people that read a book and get "cured") and never fully embracing the diagnosis. This is still the part i struggle with. When my pain is okay, tolerable, I have no problem thinking it's TMS, but when the pain flares up I just want a surgeon to pull out my nerve and be done with it.

    For now, I've decided to take it slow. I plan on doing a small amount of typing each day to hopefully recondition myself.

    One thing which kinda bugs me and I guess prevents me to fully accept the diagnosis is the fact that my pain is pretty much consistent. It doesn't hurt just when I type, it hurts whenever I overuse my arms. I work as a teller now, so there's not a lot of typing and a lot of downtime most days, but on the days where I have to use my arms a lot it still hurts. I guess I can kinda attribute this to the fact that I've become kinda obsessed with RSI during these past 18 months to the point where I can't imagine anyone doing anything repetitive without injuring themselves.

    And that's pretty much it. I'd like to hear what you think

    Thanks!
     
  2. Caulfield

    Caulfield Well known member

    That definitely sounds like powerful emotions are a critical factor here. Fear, obsession, and impatience will prompt endless symptoms! What was going on in your life when the symptoms developed?

    People can engage in repetitive motions without developing injuries or strains all day long. In fact, this was the case for countless individuals just a few generations ago. RSI is nothing more than a fad. It is clear that you are highly focused on the body and its potential weaknesses - this type of thinking will also introduce more symptoms and more pain. It does nothing but open the door for more pain opportunities!

    The brain is neuroplastic and can change anytime. The good news is that we have more control than we often realize. Whether we're dealing with "structural" pain or emotionally-driven pain, we can indeed overcome it. As noted in the following article, this includes (but is not at all limited to) chronic low-back pain from nerve injury and inflammatory damage, diabetic neuropathy, some cancer pain, abdominal pain, neck degeneration pain, amputation, trauma to the brain and spinal cord, pelvic floor pain, inflammatory bowel, irritable bowel, bladder pain, arthritis, lupus, trigeminal neuralgia, multiple sclerosis pain, post-infectious pain, nerve injuries, neuropathic pain, some central pain, phantom limb pain, degenerative disc disease, pain from failed back surgery and pain from nerve root injury, etc.

    https://www.theaustralian.com.au/news/health-science/training-the-brain-to-beat-pain/news-story/45ad7b7daaaf3c4bbbab6c76b0190ac7?nk=87368f53774b595cc4791013e74afb3f-1533600750 (Nocookies)

    You think your emotions are causing you physical pain? Good, they probably are. Now you can work on eliminating your fear and focusing on living life fully and happily. Do something that makes you brain release happy neurotransmitters. What do you love to do?
     
    Last edited: Aug 6, 2018
  3. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Well, I've been thinking about it and I think it may have been caused by fear of upcoming career change. I was about to finish my programming portofolio and start sending it to firms in a different city. Getting that job would mean moving out to a different city, alone - something which I've never done.
    Other than that, nothing much. But, there's a paragraph in The Mindbody Prescription which I can relate to very much. General disatisfaction with my job(s), feelings of low self worth and not much of a love life.

    I actually have been! For the past two months (maybe even more) I've been playing video games despite the pain and it hasn't gotten worse. At first it did, but I kinda pushed through it. Now I have no fear or worry when playing video games. The pain is still there (and I suspect it will be as long as I don't do everything without fear) but it's just not that big of a deal. It really flares up when I type a lot which is my main concern right now.

    Other than that, I've been thinking of going to the gym again. I've gained weight since this all started and I'd like to lose some of it again.

    Thanks for replying
     
  4. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Ok, at this point I'm fairly sure I have TMS. I've been anxious for the past two days (unrelated to my pain or typing) and the pain is barely noticeable. I'm sure when the anxiety subsides the pain will come back, but I'll try to use this period of painlessness to further condition myself.

    I'll keep this thread updated in case someone stumbles upon it and needs help.
     
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  5. Lizzy

    Lizzy Well known member

    Fantastic! Not that anxiety is fun, but you have your evidence of TMS being a rational explanation by the bouncing around of symptoms. The mind is a funny thing, it might try to convince you this didn't happen so I suggest you write this experience down to refer to later.

    Lizzy
     
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  6. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Update: anxiety still going strong, but it's bearable. I've just typed for two hours (well, programmed) and the pain is negligible. One interesting thing today is I'm experiencing sharp pain in my hip flexor. I've torn a muscle there ~15 years ago and occasionally get pain there. Weird coincidence that it should hurt today, no?
     
  7. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Update (I hope it's okay if i spam my thread lol):
    Today I am experiencing right shoulder pain along with the usual symptoms. It's interesting to note that he shoulder pain bugged me for 9 months or so and stopped a month or two before my forearm pain began.
    The shoulder started hurting after a breakup. I'd originally attributed the pain to overexerting myself at the gym, but looking back at possible psychological causes I remember I was very angry at my ex, but I kept everything inside for the sake of staying in good terms.
     
  8. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    My shoulder still hurts and I had pain in my forearms today, a very strong pain. For a moment i wanted to do a million tests again, but after a while I'm back on the TMS train. My shoulder also hurts a lot, despite me only doing some light exercise.

    On a lighter note, I bought myself a new mechanical keyboard, picking it up tomorrow. I didn't get it because of RSI, I got it because I wanted one for a while but never bought one because I assumed I wouldn't do much typing anyway because of my pain. I think this is in line with Sarno's philosophy.
     
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  9. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    My shoulder hurts a lot again. Do you guys think this is TMS shifting of symptoms? My original symptoms did not dissapear (except wrist pain), I gained a new one
     
  10. Lizzy

    Lizzy Well known member

    Lz123,
    I think there is a good chance its TMS. Everyone is different. I have different symptoms that usually don't last long; sometimes minutes, hours, or days. Often they are specific to something going on. Excitement and anxiety about something can give me symptoms. My best friend of 40 years lives in another state. Every year we spend a week together. Both of us get symptoms the day we arrive and the day we part. Excitement and sadness. That said, I am almost always symptom free and rarely bothered by them.

    Caufield has a long list of symptoms in his story and he overcame them. Don't let it worry you.

    And good for you, getting the keyboard you have wanted!

    Lizzy
     
  11. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Yeah I kinda figure it's my mind playing tricks on me again. It seems likely, considering I'm more accepting of the TMS diagnosis then ever. I did only some light exercise which should not logically be enough to provoke such a strong reaction.

    Thanks for replying :)
     
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  12. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Update:
    Shoulder hurts like hell today. I had a very stressful day at work yesterday, lots of movement etc. Idk, I try my best to ignore the pain but the problem is that my right arm and fingers feel a bit off..like a nerve is impinged. Regardless, I'm trying my best to ignore it. The timing is too coincidental for it to be a physical issue


    Edit: my left shoulder also started to hurt, but less than my right. This is a common pattern in all my "injuries". One side starts to hurt, a few days later the other one does as well. I'm trying not to worry about it, but this is the worst TMS symptom so far so it's not easy.
     
    Last edited: Aug 14, 2018 at 9:14 AM
  13. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Update: I am in pain, still, but it's bad. My forearms are the same but my shoulders/upper arms, sometimes my chest feel like hell. It's hard doing my job, my arms feel unresponsive at times. I dont feel like doing anything, I just want to lie in bed and rest. I had trouble writing my name today. Suprisingly, typing feels better then doing anything else with my arms.

    Emotionally speaking, this is probably related to relationship anxiety I am going through right now. I can't say I've been feeling well even before this new pain started and this isn't helping. I find it hard to stay optimistic, since the exact thing which I was dreading (working with too much pain) has happened. Idk i understand tms can shift places or migrate to another part of the body and I can certainly say this might be the case now, but Jesus Christ this is super painful, impossible to ignore and honestly scary. I' considering going to a doctor for a checkup but that might be the problem...Idk.


    Edit: thinking about it now, this might be anger towards my therapist. I've been going to psychotherapy for a few years now and I think this pain might be related to the fact that my therapist left for holiday for almost the entire month..essentially, leaving me to deal with my anxiety alone. It's funny, she often asks me if her not being available for a session angers me. I usually reply no, because it truly doesn't..This time, however..
     
    Last edited: Aug 17, 2018 at 12:37 PM
  14. AlyssaCa

    AlyssaCa Newcomer

    Hey Lz123, I'm not an expert as I also just posted about if I have TMS today and have only been familiar with this concept maybe a couple of weeks at most, but I think you are focusing a lot on your physical symptoms.

    When you focus on your physical symptoms, you feed into TMS. Doctor Sarno said that the goal of TMS is have one so focused on the body, that the deeper things in the subconscious are blocked out. I also think that the symptoms can block out present things that are bothering you. He also said that TMS can make some pretty unbearable pain.

    Since I read about TMS, the nerve pain I felt has moved to my other leg and even my hands and arms! Where it goes seems to be a day by day basis. I noticed just today alone that if I ignore that pain (I had some bad pain in my right tendon that ignored), it went away!

    However, Sarno says you also have to stop fearing this or your symptoms will come back. You also have to talk to your subconscious mind and don't let it control you. Unless you had an injury very recently, I think this is TMS.
     
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  15. Lz123

    Lz123 Newcomer

    Yeah, I am focusing on my symptoms a bit too much but that's because my symptoms get very hard to ignore. It's very hard for me to laugh off my symptoms when I can't even move my arm without pain in my shoulder. I understand the pain is illogical, it's probably just TMS shifting symptoms but it's still hard for me to just laugh it off. Nevertheless, I was thinking of maybe still joining a gym, maybe fighting back the pain is what i need to do right now..

    I think the problem is, despite me returning to some activity (I type every day now for an hour or two with no increase in symptoms in my forearms) I am still scared to get a job which involves a lot of typing and of course, the whole shoulder pain fiasco. I am still focused on my pain. It's a very tricky loop to get out of, for me at least.
     

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