Well I've reached Day 9 & he program has asked me to write about self-destructive habits, so I guess the big one for me is that I feel like these sorts of programs (or any self-help method) always work for other people but never for me. It's a bit like Lotto, I always feel that everyone else is lucky but it doesn't apply to me. I tried reading success stories for encouragment but they just made me feel worse. I often get cross with myself that I can't stop thinking about the pain, I can't ignore it. I usually get really hard on myself at the end of the the day when I realise how much of the day I have wasted worrying & stressing about this damned back pain. By then it's too late, and the damage is done. I keep pushing myself to keep getting out there & participating in life (as best I can, which his difficult) but it's hard. I push myself all the time, if I stop then I'm defeated and I don't want to be beaten. I'm stubborn, so I guess that's one good quality.