Day 1

So I've read the book
I'd done the 21 day programme
I've read week 0 and here I am.
10 months of symptoms starting with blocked ears and a 'lump' in my throat. In January the insomnia and then the headaches started, at first it was just as weird sensation but then they grew worse and worse and now they are daily starting most days around 2pm getting worse and worse. Giving me suicidal thoughts and a feeling of hopelessness .
Before this I was happy had a lust for life, had hobbies, friends work I liked.
Now I work see friends occasionally on my days off but mainly lie on my sofa and cry missing my old life.
I've had MRIs of my brain and throat of course all clear. A camera down my throat all clear, had intense treatment with a chiropractor tried muscles relaxers / opioids / amitriptyline/ iron tablets / diazepam
None of these helped.
Traditional Chinese Medicine/ speaking therapy with a counsellor - who did help me see I had been through a lot over the year or two before my symptoms started.
End of a 19 year relationship/ financial stress ect
But no relief in symptoms.
I want to believe I have TMS but so far no symptoms relief
I'm committed to this programme I just hope I can be one of the success stories. As I write this post my symptoms have all appeared at once !!