This morning I was journaling about random feeling and i got to a point where I was writing that I notice once fear creeps in slowly I feel am or was in a lighted room with little pain , then I get over come and the door slams shut and i am in the dark with my shadow ...Fear is my demon it let’s me have a couple of jail free days and then drags me right back to hell and pain. Why does the brain do this . My anxiety is really bad I try to do all that Claire weeks tells you to do but after hours or even days I sure come to taking a klonpin to calm my body down to baseline . I feel anxiety is so much worse than the pain that follows . I am open to all comments here on general forum or pm me. And yes I have seen and done Tms therapy ( was not much help then regular therapy but did make me aware of pit falls) also my primary dr here in Boston is a Tms physician so medically I have been check.