Well, it's been 4 moths since I started my Sarno Journey. I have been pain and disability free for 4 months. That hasn't happened since I had my injury in 2014. I was so happy living life again like a normal person, unafraid of pain, knowing it was all psychological. Welllpppp, that all came to a screeching halt last Monday. I had a job interview after being out of the work force for YEARS due to my "injury". Well, I bit the bullet and interviewed even though I had so much anxiety and fear and didn't want to make myself vulnerable knowing I didn't have full credential for the position. (Side note, I had been volunteering for this organization for 6 months and they asked me to apply to the position.) Moving along, I interviewed with the manager then went on to interview with the COO. I was dying of anxiety and was having so much negative thinking about myself. Fast forward to last Monday I did not get the job, and I hated the way they told me I didn't get the position also. That same day I didn't get the job, I also had a therapy session discussing very deep issues I have with my family. When I got home that afternoon a couple hours later my back went completely out! I went crooked! Something I hadn't experienced in months. I know it's all due to me failing at getting the job and my perfectionism, and discussing the deep painful issues I have with my family, but being disabled and in pain again is just so so so so so so so so so so so so so so depressing. I feel like it's my fault as well for stopping my journaling and all my good practices since I thought I was doing much "better." TMS has reared its ugly head once again and it makes you feel so so weak.