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just be. Jan 3, 2016

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  • My Story

    Six months back I had my first muscle spasm at upper back (right side should blade) when I was washing my clothes(bending to wash my clothes). It hurt a lot. After series of check up and physiotheraphy I was as it is. I took muscle relaxants as prescribed and did physio and UltraSound heating. All just for few moment. I was in searching for way to cure it. I searched and read many books on posture , back anatomy of back.

    Did yoga jogging exercise aerobics. All helped only to my body active fresh but that spasm in upper back as it is. I felt tight in my back shoulder and it was so painful. All that I did helped to made my body active and fit but it didn't made spasm go away.

    Currently I am in 7th semester and I am planning to join software company after getting degree in Computer Science. My current situation frustrated me. And doctor suggested to sit straight while using laptop and minimize laptop use. But i am student of computer!!!

    Read a lot of book, many days of pain frustration. I read all i could watch i could over online. I read people not cured from 20-30 years and comment as live with it. Make pain part of your life. And my pain feared a lot.

    Then I was angry at my situation. Threw all medicine into dustbin. Deleted on books and history of things i read online. I wanted to restart my prespective on this back pain. I began keen observation on myself to find out causes of back pain. I realized all my wrong posture of while walking, sleeping sitting and bending(washing clothes). I made commitment to change my posture and it didn't last that long. Utterly frustrated.

    I read sarno's book and toss it away. I didn't understood a bit. I needed a instant solution to my problem because my 7th semester exams are near and I remember the pain I went through on my exam (6th sem) while sitting. I focused on my sitting. I modified my chair changed cushion, changed my bed and way i sat walk move turn. After doing that forcefully for few days I felt less human, more robot. I remember myself as application of my subject artificial intelligence!!!

    I had lots of spasm on my upper back on either side of shoulder and on shoulder, neck. I use to have spasm, tightness then i use to have bulge. Small bulge. Then after few days it would shrink and there would be patch very dark patch. Looked at those patches my taking pictures. I feared more. I checked skin specialist (4 MD's in skin). But after few days that patch went away. Again at other portion of upper back i had same cycle. Spasm. Small bulge. Shrink. Dark patch on skin. Clean. Again at other place.

    I realized that all this way in six months i continuously had headache. before or after spasm I had headache. Then i re-read sarno's book then my habits behavior thinking pattern was there in the book. Then I read Pain free for life by scott brady. I had AHA moment when i heard the world spiritual health. Then i realized all 3oo+ books and other articles i read on spirituality that had completely shatter my innner world. I was in total chaos anger guilt.

    Now, i have that tightness in neck area. That dark patch.

    I dont know i am on right track or not. I have realized its TMS. But i am not 100% sure. Some time i feel its 100% TMS but then that confidence keeps on fluctuating..when angry sad it gets 0% and in anger i say "why the hell is this not working? when will it work?" I have felt spasm increasing as I get angry.

    Thats my journey.
    1. silentflutes
      silentflutes
      just be.
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    2. Tennis Tom
      Tennis Tom
      Hi Silentflutes,

      I would say you're in the right place. Read this site's "SUCCESS STORIES" section and you will find many who have been cured who sound like you. If you want to read one more book--hopefully your last--self-help book, I would recommend Steven Ray Ozanich's great TMS tome "THE GREAT PAIN DECEPTION: Faulty Medical Advice Is Making Us Worse".

      Cheers,
      tt
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  • My Story

    Gender:
    Male
    Occupation:
    Software developer
    Diagnoses:
    Upper back muscle spasm
    Six months back I had my first muscle spasm at upper back (right side should blade) when I was washing my clothes(bending to wash my clothes). It hurt a lot. After series of check up and physiotheraphy I was as it is. I took muscle relaxants as prescribed and did physio and UltraSound heating. All just for few moment. I was in searching for way to cure it. I searched and read many books on posture , back anatomy of back.

    Did yoga jogging exercise aerobics. All helped only to my body active fresh but that spasm in upper back as it is. I felt tight in my back shoulder and it was so painful. All that I did helped to made my body active and fit but it didn't made spasm go away.

    Currently I am in 7th semester and I am planning to join software company after getting degree in Computer Science. My current situation frustrated me. And doctor suggested to sit straight while using laptop and minimize laptop use. But i am student of computer!!!

    Read a lot of book, many days of pain frustration. I read all i could watch i could over online. I read people not cured from 20-30 years and comment as live with it. Make pain part of your life. And my pain feared a lot.

    Then I was angry at my situation. Threw all medicine into dustbin. Deleted on books and history of things i read online. I wanted to restart my prespective on this back pain. I began keen observation on myself to find out causes of back pain. I realized all my wrong posture of while walking, sleeping sitting and bending(washing clothes). I made commitment to change my posture and it didn't last that long. Utterly frustrated.

    I read sarno's book and toss it away. I didn't understood a bit. I needed a instant solution to my problem because my 7th semester exams are near and I remember the pain I went through on my exam (6th sem) while sitting. I focused on my sitting. I modified my chair changed cushion, changed my bed and way i sat walk move turn. After doing that forcefully for few days I felt less human, more robot. I remember myself as application of my subject artificial intelligence!!!

    I had lots of spasm on my upper back on either side of shoulder and on shoulder, neck. I use to have spasm, tightness then i use to have bulge. Small bulge. Then after few days it would shrink and there would be patch very dark patch. Looked at those patches my taking pictures. I feared more. I checked skin specialist (4 MD's in skin). But after few days that patch went away. Again at other portion of upper back i had same cycle. Spasm. Small bulge. Shrink. Dark patch on skin. Clean. Again at other place.

    I realized that all this way in six months i continuously had headache. before or after spasm I had headache. Then i re-read sarno's book then my habits behavior thinking pattern was there in the book. Then I read Pain free for life by scott brady. I had AHA moment when i heard the world spiritual health. Then i realized all 3oo+ books and other articles i read on spirituality that had completely shatter my innner world. I was in total chaos anger guilt.

    Now, i have that tightness in neck area. That dark patch.

    I dont know i am on right track or not. I have realized its TMS. But i am not 100% sure. Some time i feel its 100% TMS but then that confidence keeps on fluctuating..when angry sad it gets 0% and in anger i say "why the hell is this not working? when will it work?" I have felt spasm increasing as I get angry.

    Thats my journey.
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