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breakfree

Peer Supporter, Female, from UK South Wales

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  • My Story

    Where do I begin ???

    Prior to 2004 I was a very active person !

    I'm in my 40's ,and from the Uk, for the last 12 years I have been disabled by chronic pain, after an epidural went wrong in March 2004, on the birth of my fourth child... the needle accidentally punctured my dura, causing spinal nerve damage,and an infected epidural hematoma, and I contracted septicemia.

    I have mobility problems and use a crutch to walk, and if pain is out of control an electric wheelchair too. Severe Neck and Back pain are my main symptoms.

    I was physically/emotionally/verbally abused at the hands of my 'mother' the earliest memory I have of it, is at age 4 years old ... it continued until I finally left home when I turned 18 years old, but it didn't finish there, the verbal abused continued until I decided to confront her about all her abuse... that's when she disowned me in Oct 2004

    Mid 2015 , I hit my LOWEST point, pain and depression were WAY out of control - so in the midst of doing one of 'my routine' Google searches, (to try to find out WHAT was wrong with me !!) I stumbbled upon TMS .. started reading/watching videos/found this forum/and on the 31st Oct 2015 bought/read 2 of Dr Sarno's books...

    Like other people have said, I too , saw myself on EVERY SINGLE page ! Fianally 'something fitted me' NOTHING had EVER properly fitted before - I TRULY BELIEVE I have tms - I have ALL the personality traits that Dr Sarno describes, there have been times when all of a sudden I might feel a little better - but then I would get worse again ... Strong medication (slow release morphine to name but one of the many drugs I was on) DIDN'T always help the pain.

    So I am at the moment right at the very beginning of my tms Fight, already I HAVE had improvements, and right this second a decline too, but I feel so strongly about TMS fitting me, that 'Im willing to fight.

    I will keep you updated
    1. Hen
      Hen
      I like your name Break Free! Wanted to stop by and comment on you story. I'm sorry about the abuse . I know where you're coming from with that. I was verbally and physically abused as a kid and like up until 18 when I left. Sending you healing and peaceful vibes. The forum is great. Welcome.
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      2. breakfree
        breakfree
        Hi Hen Thanks for your message and kindness, yes this forum is a God-send, and I too am very sorry about the abused you had suffered... Im begining to wonder if people like us actually suffer from PTSD aswell as tms ? Hugs xx
        Jan 6, 2016
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  • My Story

    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    UK South Wales
    Occupation:
    disabled
    Diagnoses:
    2000; antiphospholipid syndrome / severe herpes (hospitalised)

    from 2004;
    spinal nerve damage
    inadvert epidural puncture (blood patch performed)
    migraines
    infected epidural haematoma (hospitalised)
    septicaemia
    severe muscle spasms (back/neck)
    hearing loss (hearing aids both ears)
    fibromyalgia
    chronic fatigue syndrome
    myofascial pain syndrome
    costochondritis
    severe memory/concentration problems (literally thought I was loosing my mind!)
    neuralgia
    oedema
    pneumonia (colasped right lung/hospitalised)
    raynaulds disease
    menieres disease/ vertigo, tinnitus
    IBS
    Anxiety
    Depression
    joint pain
    Severe Night Sweats
    Photo-phobia
    Where do I begin ???

    Prior to 2004 I was a very active person !

    I'm in my 40's ,and from the Uk, for the last 12 years I have been disabled by chronic pain, after an epidural went wrong in March 2004, on the birth of my fourth child... the needle accidentally punctured my dura, causing spinal nerve damage,and an infected epidural hematoma, and I contracted septicemia.

    I have mobility problems and use a crutch to walk, and if pain is out of control an electric wheelchair too. Severe Neck and Back pain are my main symptoms.

    I was physically/emotionally/verbally abused at the hands of my 'mother' the earliest memory I have of it, is at age 4 years old ... it continued until I finally left home when I turned 18 years old, but it didn't finish there, the verbal abused continued until I decided to confront her about all her abuse... that's when she disowned me in Oct 2004

    Mid 2015 , I hit my LOWEST point, pain and depression were WAY out of control - so in the midst of doing one of 'my routine' Google searches, (to try to find out WHAT was wrong with me !!) I stumbbled upon TMS .. started reading/watching videos/found this forum/and on the 31st Oct 2015 bought/read 2 of Dr Sarno's books...

    Like other people have said, I too , saw myself on EVERY SINGLE page ! Fianally 'something fitted me' NOTHING had EVER properly fitted before - I TRULY BELIEVE I have tms - I have ALL the personality traits that Dr Sarno describes, there have been times when all of a sudden I might feel a little better - but then I would get worse again ... Strong medication (slow release morphine to name but one of the many drugs I was on) DIDN'T always help the pain.

    So I am at the moment right at the very beginning of my tms Fight, already I HAVE had improvements, and right this second a decline too, but I feel so strongly about TMS fitting me, that 'Im willing to fight.

    I will keep you updated