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My experience with TMS has been kind of different but in some ways very similar to the stories I have been reading. I have struggled with intense lower back pain/spasms since I was young, mind you I am only 20 lol. A doctor told me I had slight scoliosis and 2 extra bones in my lower back and that is all I remember about that consultation. My mom healed herself from TMS shortly after this so she was very good at teaching me that this pain was stress induced, so I have always been aware that it is caused by stress but never really cared to put the work into the healing process because my back pain just comes and goes it never stays for long periods even though it is really intense in the moment. But recently I have been getting more symptoms and of course it is because I have been very stressed out. I have had a bad breakout for months and I have never suffered from acne before, I was getting a lot of urinary burning but I have not been having it since accepting the TMS diagnosis, cold sores which is new and out of the blue and when that one occurs I get really embarrassed and scared which I have been trying to work on because I now know that is what feeds TMS. I was getting bad headaches along with neck pain, swollen glands, abdominal pain at times, and sometimes feet pain, also chronic fatigue. As you can see my symptoms never stay in one place and I have gone to the doctor multiple times as someone who struggles with health anxiety and they have never found anything wrong... But the one symptom that I suffer from the worst and that I have never heard anyone else talk about is facial blushing. I don't know if that is under the TMS category but I have the same experiences of people with chronic pain as I do with blushing. It came on in a really stressful and embarrassing situation and ever since then in 7th grade, I became DEATHLY afraid of it happening and so I tried to avoid any situations that could have triggered it which of course only made it worse and made it happen more frequently. I know it isn't pain but I think it started in the same ways that TMS symptoms do. My body thinks it is protecting me in situations of fear and nervousness but I am going to college in a couple weeks and this is the thing that made me really want to embark on this healing journey. Does anyone have advice or has anyone had similar experiences?