bluesboy63
Well known member
Hello all-
Day 1, finally, yet again. I have been a disciple of Dr. Sarno's theories for at least 10 years. I am as expert as expert can get and take every chance possible to pass on the information to anyone I feel it will help. The problem is that my own procrastination has never allowed me to help myself. I think this is one of the ways that TMS works against us in the background silently, yet efficiently. For me, my interest in recovery is intense while I'm episodic. The TMS takes me to the point of breaking, then lays off enough for me to exhale. That's when the procrastination takes over. So many other things to do when the mind body issues are minor; a pain here, a pain there, moving around so as not to draw too much attention but there still the same. However, it's not bad enough to make the effort to change. Change is so hard when the TMS takes a little break and believe me, the mind knows when to hit you, where to hit you, and how hard to hit you.
Now it's time. Time to hit back. I have been dealing with the effects of this for 45+ years. I am the textbook personality for TMS. I have a laundry list a mile long of ways it has found to hit me. I can't tell you how many times I thought I was going to die or have to live with a disease that would make me wish I were dead. The funny thing is that it always goes away, then it comes back somewhere else. I pretty much have the back pain issue under control and it knows that. My weak spots are my gut, my vertigo/equilibrium, and the one that freaked me out the most, my motor skills. I woke up one day about 4 years ago and it was like someone else's arm was attached to my left side. Out of nowhere this happened. I grabbed my guitar, which I have been playing for over 30 years, and couldn't make my fingers work. What was it? My mind went crazy with horrific thoughts of whether I had MS or ALS! I got to my bottle of Ativan as soon as possible and it eventually went away. The problem became that now I know how to tame the beast and have been starting my days with 1MG of Ativan ever since "just in case" and take it from me, that's not the solution unless you're willing to become a hardcore benzo addict which I am not. It creates false withdrawal symptoms to get you to up your dosage, or are they just more TMS symptoms? More frustration, more fear, an endless cycle that seemingly can't be stopped.
I know, absolutely. without a doubt, that TMS is the source of all of this. That belief is not enough anymore, so I'm finally, yet again taking the steps to recover...
Day 1, finally, yet again. I have been a disciple of Dr. Sarno's theories for at least 10 years. I am as expert as expert can get and take every chance possible to pass on the information to anyone I feel it will help. The problem is that my own procrastination has never allowed me to help myself. I think this is one of the ways that TMS works against us in the background silently, yet efficiently. For me, my interest in recovery is intense while I'm episodic. The TMS takes me to the point of breaking, then lays off enough for me to exhale. That's when the procrastination takes over. So many other things to do when the mind body issues are minor; a pain here, a pain there, moving around so as not to draw too much attention but there still the same. However, it's not bad enough to make the effort to change. Change is so hard when the TMS takes a little break and believe me, the mind knows when to hit you, where to hit you, and how hard to hit you.
Now it's time. Time to hit back. I have been dealing with the effects of this for 45+ years. I am the textbook personality for TMS. I have a laundry list a mile long of ways it has found to hit me. I can't tell you how many times I thought I was going to die or have to live with a disease that would make me wish I were dead. The funny thing is that it always goes away, then it comes back somewhere else. I pretty much have the back pain issue under control and it knows that. My weak spots are my gut, my vertigo/equilibrium, and the one that freaked me out the most, my motor skills. I woke up one day about 4 years ago and it was like someone else's arm was attached to my left side. Out of nowhere this happened. I grabbed my guitar, which I have been playing for over 30 years, and couldn't make my fingers work. What was it? My mind went crazy with horrific thoughts of whether I had MS or ALS! I got to my bottle of Ativan as soon as possible and it eventually went away. The problem became that now I know how to tame the beast and have been starting my days with 1MG of Ativan ever since "just in case" and take it from me, that's not the solution unless you're willing to become a hardcore benzo addict which I am not. It creates false withdrawal symptoms to get you to up your dosage, or are they just more TMS symptoms? More frustration, more fear, an endless cycle that seemingly can't be stopped.
I know, absolutely. without a doubt, that TMS is the source of all of this. That belief is not enough anymore, so I'm finally, yet again taking the steps to recover...
