theo1231231
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Hello, I just want to share my story and see what you people think about it, is it TMS or what?
To start with Im an animator, I do lots of drawing and always have done, I love doing it and it gives my life purpose.
4 years ago I started getting a cramp in my wrist when I was drawing for some time, maybe like a few hours or so, not like a really long time.
Then I went to university to study animation, and my wrist pain got worse, much worse, it feels like my nerves are really tight along my arm, and most painful in my wrist, and the back of my hand feels numb, and I get tingling in my fingers. These symptoms I just mentioned I have them constantly, but they get worse the more I use my wrist (drawing, typing, things where I make small movements with my wrist). When I draw for too long my wrist feels cramped, and it will click loudly. I also feel this slight shaking in my hands, thats again aggravated by using my wrist.
I dropped out of uni after a few months because I wanted to go to a better uni, so I spent a year working on my drawing to get my portfolio up to scratch to get a place in the university, what helped my wrist pain was drawing things big, on an easel, in charcoal, because that way its less pressure on the wrist, and your using more of your arm than your wrist. I got in to the uni, but then my wrist hurt so bad I decided to defer my entry, and now this year Im suppose to go there, but I think my wrist is still too painful to put myself through 3 years of constant drawing using a pencil. So Ive decided to let it go for now, and come back to it if I find some kind of solution for my wrist. Its been a hard 4 years, seriously depressing and Ive got this constant anxiety about the whole thing.
The other thing is that I get pain in my left hand sometimes too, and at that time the pain in the right hand seems to go away, but still in this situation its uncomfortable to draw with my right.
Its worrying because about a decade ago I actually fell from a great height, and fractured both wrists, then didn't get medical help until the next day because I wanted to see how I felt in the morning. I was in plaster for 6 weeks, and didnt do any physio after as the doctor didnt recommend anything, something I really wish Id done.
Ive been to lots of doctors, physiotherapists, hand and joint specialists, they've checked my blood, given me exercises, x-rays, nerve tests, MRIs, acupuncture, gels, pills, etc. They say my wrist is fine, strong, healthy, no problems.
The doctors say my bones have healed after the fracture, and they all look fine on the X rays and MRI.
The only thing that worked was the ibuprofen, I had a big project so I was working on it all day every day, and was taking ibuprofen 3 times a day for around 6 weeks. This actually triggered a condition called Ulcerative Colitis, so Ive got that for life now, which is a whole other thing, but I know colitis is also related to stress/TMS, but in this case I'm pretty confident it was due to way to much ibuprofen.
One thing that makes me think this is TMS, is that when I smoke weed, my symptoms are always always so much worse, I can really feel all the pain so much more, and its impossible to draw or enjoy it in any way because its so painful, which is super annoying because Ive loved getting stoned and drawing and listening to music for so many years.
Does anyone have an insight on any of this? I want to believe its TMS but Id love some opinions on the matter.
If you think it is, does anyone have any techniques, mental exercises, processes, ideas, ways that they cope with it or anything at all that might point me into the right direction to fix my stupid brain and telling it that its all in your head?
Any advice of any kind on the matter would be a life saver,
Thank you kind folks,
Theo.
To start with Im an animator, I do lots of drawing and always have done, I love doing it and it gives my life purpose.
4 years ago I started getting a cramp in my wrist when I was drawing for some time, maybe like a few hours or so, not like a really long time.
Then I went to university to study animation, and my wrist pain got worse, much worse, it feels like my nerves are really tight along my arm, and most painful in my wrist, and the back of my hand feels numb, and I get tingling in my fingers. These symptoms I just mentioned I have them constantly, but they get worse the more I use my wrist (drawing, typing, things where I make small movements with my wrist). When I draw for too long my wrist feels cramped, and it will click loudly. I also feel this slight shaking in my hands, thats again aggravated by using my wrist.
I dropped out of uni after a few months because I wanted to go to a better uni, so I spent a year working on my drawing to get my portfolio up to scratch to get a place in the university, what helped my wrist pain was drawing things big, on an easel, in charcoal, because that way its less pressure on the wrist, and your using more of your arm than your wrist. I got in to the uni, but then my wrist hurt so bad I decided to defer my entry, and now this year Im suppose to go there, but I think my wrist is still too painful to put myself through 3 years of constant drawing using a pencil. So Ive decided to let it go for now, and come back to it if I find some kind of solution for my wrist. Its been a hard 4 years, seriously depressing and Ive got this constant anxiety about the whole thing.
The other thing is that I get pain in my left hand sometimes too, and at that time the pain in the right hand seems to go away, but still in this situation its uncomfortable to draw with my right.
Its worrying because about a decade ago I actually fell from a great height, and fractured both wrists, then didn't get medical help until the next day because I wanted to see how I felt in the morning. I was in plaster for 6 weeks, and didnt do any physio after as the doctor didnt recommend anything, something I really wish Id done.
Ive been to lots of doctors, physiotherapists, hand and joint specialists, they've checked my blood, given me exercises, x-rays, nerve tests, MRIs, acupuncture, gels, pills, etc. They say my wrist is fine, strong, healthy, no problems.
The doctors say my bones have healed after the fracture, and they all look fine on the X rays and MRI.
The only thing that worked was the ibuprofen, I had a big project so I was working on it all day every day, and was taking ibuprofen 3 times a day for around 6 weeks. This actually triggered a condition called Ulcerative Colitis, so Ive got that for life now, which is a whole other thing, but I know colitis is also related to stress/TMS, but in this case I'm pretty confident it was due to way to much ibuprofen.
One thing that makes me think this is TMS, is that when I smoke weed, my symptoms are always always so much worse, I can really feel all the pain so much more, and its impossible to draw or enjoy it in any way because its so painful, which is super annoying because Ive loved getting stoned and drawing and listening to music for so many years.
Does anyone have an insight on any of this? I want to believe its TMS but Id love some opinions on the matter.
If you think it is, does anyone have any techniques, mental exercises, processes, ideas, ways that they cope with it or anything at all that might point me into the right direction to fix my stupid brain and telling it that its all in your head?
Any advice of any kind on the matter would be a life saver,
Thank you kind folks,
Theo.
