Hey!
This is 2 or 3 months after reading sarno's book.
I'm very happy where i'm at now, could've never dreamed it.
So I had "RSI" for 14 months, read the book, did some days here at TMSwiki, and now the pain is 80% less. Before all this i couldnt play games for 5 minutes without pain, now there are days where i play 12 hours. Some days without pain, but most days there are a couple of times where i feel a little sting, sometimes longer than 3 minutes. I have played at least 30 hours a week for the last 4 weeks and its not really getting worse, the pain is moving though.
Heres my problem, while i have a ton of evidence that its TMS, whenever the pain comes back it gets me super-depressed, and 90% of the times my mind goes to living a life on its own and thinking its structural or my fear of the pain will not go away. Everytime i play games it feels like i have got something to prove, and it takes away from the fun.
( some evidence)
- the pain moves, thumb / wrist / elbow / upper arm/ lower arm
- Whenever I take a xanax i have zero pain ( only tried this 3 times, so im guessing its not a coincidence)
- Sometimes after reading about TMS makes the pain goes away, but most times a nights rest is needed.
Its obvious that the pain and the stress related to it is still very much there. My mood is very outcome-dependant of how much pain i experience,
So whats your experience? Im noticing that im still trying to make adjustments in the way I sit, or hold my controller when i notice some pains, so that means theres a part of me who's really not focusing on the the right thing.
Im very happy about this progress, and if i look back on those 3 months i can defenitely see how i improved each week, but sometimes im getting so tired of the fear of pain.
Did it take you long before the fear was gone? I feel like ive plateaued.
I do have an anxiety disorder, so thats not really helping , its too bad that xanax builds up a tolerance, else i wouldve been popping pills 24/7
This is 2 or 3 months after reading sarno's book.
I'm very happy where i'm at now, could've never dreamed it.
So I had "RSI" for 14 months, read the book, did some days here at TMSwiki, and now the pain is 80% less. Before all this i couldnt play games for 5 minutes without pain, now there are days where i play 12 hours. Some days without pain, but most days there are a couple of times where i feel a little sting, sometimes longer than 3 minutes. I have played at least 30 hours a week for the last 4 weeks and its not really getting worse, the pain is moving though.
Heres my problem, while i have a ton of evidence that its TMS, whenever the pain comes back it gets me super-depressed, and 90% of the times my mind goes to living a life on its own and thinking its structural or my fear of the pain will not go away. Everytime i play games it feels like i have got something to prove, and it takes away from the fun.
( some evidence)
- the pain moves, thumb / wrist / elbow / upper arm/ lower arm
- Whenever I take a xanax i have zero pain ( only tried this 3 times, so im guessing its not a coincidence)
- Sometimes after reading about TMS makes the pain goes away, but most times a nights rest is needed.
Its obvious that the pain and the stress related to it is still very much there. My mood is very outcome-dependant of how much pain i experience,
So whats your experience? Im noticing that im still trying to make adjustments in the way I sit, or hold my controller when i notice some pains, so that means theres a part of me who's really not focusing on the the right thing.
Im very happy about this progress, and if i look back on those 3 months i can defenitely see how i improved each week, but sometimes im getting so tired of the fear of pain.
Did it take you long before the fear was gone? I feel like ive plateaued.
I do have an anxiety disorder, so thats not really helping , its too bad that xanax builds up a tolerance, else i wouldve been popping pills 24/7
