I would love to have a pleasant dream at night. My whole life, from my earliest memory, I've had anxiety-filled nightmares of being in danger, without a place to be or live, subservient to other cruel or dismissive people, in out-of-control situations, fear of being blamed for some horrible thing. As a little girl, I always feared abandonment. My sisters took up a whole bunch of attention, and my parents were both very self-possessed. As my mother aged, stories would slip out of her that I didn't know: i.e. I broke my arm at age 3, but she didn't take me to the doctor until days later. As a one year old, I fell from a crib to the hardwoods and had "a big lump" on my head...as she described it. Again, no doctor. There are other stories. I've let that stuff go to the best of my abilities, as there was only one family car...which my dad took...and she was home alone with 3 kids under age 6. By day I don't spend time feeling like a victim as an adult, but when I sleep, my subconscious opens the hell gates. I've been meditating for a bit before bed, reading uplifting materials, praying for peace, etc. I'm sure a dream analyst would have a heyday with my head. I guess I'm wondering if any of you have anxiety-laced nightmares....and....well...I'd love to move on from them. I envy people who have beautiful dreams. Thanks all.