Hi - I am a newcomer to this forum. I have dealt with back issues on and off throughout my life, with the worst episode (before now) in 2005. My most recent flareup began in June 2012. At first I attributed it to P90X. My symptoms came and went over the next several months. An x-ray came up normal - just a little lumbar arthritis - and I was doing okay until a bad flareup in January. Physical therapy seemed to help, and then in mid-March it came back with a vengeance. I began reading Healing Back Pain at my sister's recommendation, then the Divided Mind. I began journaling and trying to uncover/confront my emotional issues/stressors. Lots there, of course. But my symptoms have gotten worse, to the point that the pain in my right leg and hip is so bad that I may need a crutch to get around. I tried some presciption pain meds to get me over the hump, but they made me sick. I am feeling despair now - I want my life back so badly, and I am so tired of this. Any words of hope and encouragement from people who have been there would be much appreciated!