I continue to get more active and able to do things I have not been able to for a long time. TMS symptoms spike up from time to time but I "talk to them". The proof that I am on the right track is how much more I am able to live! I had a challenging few days: Made a lovely Thanksgiving dinner for family and had a family member act out to the point that my appetite was ruined and my heart was racing at 100 mph. I wasn't sure what to do but as this person was leaving I walked them to the car and told them that their behavior is not OK and that I do not want to spend time together until they learn how to treat me. Boy this was tough - on me and them (they were in total shock). I spent rest of day crying but glad I stood up for myself. On Saturday we spoke and resolved (maybe) some things but I have had decide on some limits and rules for spending time with this person. It is not easy for me to risk displeasing anyone (ouch!) but on the other hand no one else has the right to bully me around. So I am learning, but the emotions around this have me in a turmoil. Then, I managed to trip and fall on the pavement outside...a hard nose-dive. I am so lucky that I ended up with only bruises and scrapes and a pulled muscle or 2. I noticed that even tho it was a hard hit my TMS pain was fine until yesterday. When the leg pain came back hard I kept reminding myself what was really going on. And it finally resolved. So much turmoil plus more issues are starting to crop up with other VIPs in my life. Looks like I have to stand up for what I want some more. I feel like I am at sea being tossed around by emotions and not sure how to balance my needs and others'. I am very tired of being the one to plan/host/prepare food and try to create a nice holiday for everyone. I am taking this opportunity to hang up my apron for a while. I think I'll want to be without the stressful people on Christmas day. I'll spend my time in spiritual practices and spend some time with nature.... My goodness but it is easier to repress, isn't it? But I'm not willing to live my life that way anymore! I just wish I knew better how to sort it all out!