Ales
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I had trouble with my back time to time since 1998. They told me it's normal and I excepted it but only now I see it's not normal to have back pain. It's not normal to have any pain. I did 30+ visits to chiropractor and bought a lot of back accesories. In march this year it hit me real bad. I barely walked, my left leg was getting tinner and it hurted like hell. I lost about 10 pounds. I was on the sick leave for about 2 months. I went to doctor, to 2 orthopedists, to MR, to EMG. I was diagnosed with herniated disk L4-L5,L5-S1. I couldn't sit, drive, walk, lift things,etc...I was practically doing absolutely nothing, ooh I was swallowing pain killers day after day, a lots of them.
In June this year the pain suddenly eased on me for a few days. I didn't know then why but sure I was glad. Same time the book of John E Sarno "Healling back pain" came to me and I read it for the first time. Due to this book I canceled my additional visits with physiotherapist and orthopedist. It took a mountain of courage for me to do that.
I found myself in actually every page of the book. And there is "but". The pain came back in my back, leg and hip, not as bad as before but I was still taking pain killers. The difference was that I began doing things despite of pain, working on farm, making woods, walking, thou with fear.
Then I have found out and made e-mail contact with Steven Ozanich (mister and master, friend, you name it), described him my situation and he gave me words of encouragement and some useful tips such as:
- accept, belive and know to have TMS
- do what I like
- relax
- listen to music
- thank every evening for things, people..
- be more happy, joking
- the case of abandonment
- do nothing to heal my pain
- talk to my mind
- do things that I normally do, even the hardest (then the fear vanished)
- look thru my conflicts
- not to bother to be good to everybody or to look good for everybody
- it's nothing wrong with my body or spine or leg or hip, etc..
- herniated disc does not cause pain
- throw away all implants for shoes, extra pillows, implants for car seats (I did burn them all)
- etc.
The most helpfull tip for me was "Do nothing to heal my pain." It exploded through my body and mind. When Steve said(interview) how he slamed his foot on the ground, I did that too. And he talked about running(same interview), that day I began to run though limping. I also bought his book "The great pain deception"
One August day there was a break down for me - in a positive way.It happened, it did. It's was a miracle to me. I was sitting all day at my job in all kind positions for nearly 8 hours, afterwards I went collecting hay with tractor for three hours and in the evening I went for regular run that I used to do it before and all that with little or no pain at all. You know, while I was running I did't know if I was crying or smiling due to immense happiness.Tears were actually dropping. There are some occasional light "pinching" and then I say: " I'm in some kind of stress, anxious or fear or anger, it's mental, etc....." It goes away.
I needed personal guidence. Thank you Steve
Thank you TMSWiki-girls and TMSWiki-guys because I have found a lot of usefull tips such as jurnaling, coping with my darker side, thoughts, etc. on TMSWiki.
There is a way out.
Ales
In June this year the pain suddenly eased on me for a few days. I didn't know then why but sure I was glad. Same time the book of John E Sarno "Healling back pain" came to me and I read it for the first time. Due to this book I canceled my additional visits with physiotherapist and orthopedist. It took a mountain of courage for me to do that.
I found myself in actually every page of the book. And there is "but". The pain came back in my back, leg and hip, not as bad as before but I was still taking pain killers. The difference was that I began doing things despite of pain, working on farm, making woods, walking, thou with fear.
Then I have found out and made e-mail contact with Steven Ozanich (mister and master, friend, you name it), described him my situation and he gave me words of encouragement and some useful tips such as:
- accept, belive and know to have TMS
- do what I like
- relax
- listen to music
- thank every evening for things, people..
- be more happy, joking
- the case of abandonment
- do nothing to heal my pain
- talk to my mind
- do things that I normally do, even the hardest (then the fear vanished)
- look thru my conflicts
- not to bother to be good to everybody or to look good for everybody
- it's nothing wrong with my body or spine or leg or hip, etc..
- herniated disc does not cause pain
- throw away all implants for shoes, extra pillows, implants for car seats (I did burn them all)
- etc.
The most helpfull tip for me was "Do nothing to heal my pain." It exploded through my body and mind. When Steve said(interview) how he slamed his foot on the ground, I did that too. And he talked about running(same interview), that day I began to run though limping. I also bought his book "The great pain deception"
One August day there was a break down for me - in a positive way.It happened, it did. It's was a miracle to me. I was sitting all day at my job in all kind positions for nearly 8 hours, afterwards I went collecting hay with tractor for three hours and in the evening I went for regular run that I used to do it before and all that with little or no pain at all. You know, while I was running I did't know if I was crying or smiling due to immense happiness.Tears were actually dropping. There are some occasional light "pinching" and then I say: " I'm in some kind of stress, anxious or fear or anger, it's mental, etc....." It goes away.
I needed personal guidence. Thank you Steve
Thank you TMSWiki-girls and TMSWiki-guys because I have found a lot of usefull tips such as jurnaling, coping with my darker side, thoughts, etc. on TMSWiki.
There is a way out.
Ales
