It's humbling to admit that after working the TMS program for several years (with great success) that I'm sitting here at work with an ice pack on my arm and taking Aleve for something that I know is TMS. About a month ago, I started having pain in my left elbow/forearm. A manageable discomfort that I didn't pay a lot of attention to. A few weeks ago, I had the thought, "I wonder why my left arm is hurting when I use my right arm so much more?" I work at a computer 7 to 8 hours per day so that would have made more sense. You probably know what I'm getting ready to say. A few days later my right arm began to hurt...really hurt. At first I tried to laugh it off as sneaky TMS, but the pain has progressed to where it's keeping me awake at night. A few days ago, I developed slight swelling in the forearm. Hence the ice pack and Aleve. My husband wants me to go to the doctor, but I'm not going down that rabbit hole again. I'll admit that I Googled tennis elbow to see if it hurt in the same spot. And, I began catastrophic thinking "what if...." Our financial situation is precarious and the thoughts of not being able to work scares me to death. I've always been a gullible person. I believe what people tell me and rarely challenge "the system." I guess that must apply to my own thoughts. I'm gullible to my own brain. I'm going back to a daily journal practice and working the SEP again. Also, looking into the possibility of TMS counseling. Something that I have been reluctant to do because of money constraints. Practicing self care, meditation, and TRYING not to feel like a failure for sitting at my desk with my arm on an ice pack.